Wednesday, July 7, 2010
10:39 AM
For once, I knew what I wanted. What I feel I was born to do... but....
I could still remember the first time I used a video editting software. It was in my primary school days and we were taught the very basics of editing and were allowed to play with the Mac. I was very blurr and unsure of what to do. It wasn't that of an interesting thing to do for me at first, but it was interesting how one same footage could look so different after editing. Every one of us were given the same footage, but all of them looked entirely different after we edited it.
That's how I got hooked in WMM, Windows Movie Maker. I wanted to be better at editting, and wanted to just make a good video. I googled, and found a free software available on the net and downloaded it. At first, it was a huge struggle. It wasn't as easy to use as the software in Mac as the options were very vague and trying to do something you specifically want is hard. However, I got the hang of it and now I can do so many things with one free software, of course after years of practice!
So since Sec 2, I have been making videos and more videos of spin-offs of the animes and movies I see. I find it so fun using the same material but getting a totally different result. I never saw it as a future prospect, just as a hobby. I was so into it, I could live for months and even years just making videos. For so long, I never realised that this could possibly be the perfect job for me. I always thought I was meant to do something like being a doctor, or a lawyer, or a government worker.
When NYP offered this course, it moved me. All my interests, combined into one. I didn't have to choose. Writing, filming, editting, business all in one. And that was to me the first time I actually thought of editing as a future prospect. I was happy, to finally find a course that I can tell suits me so perfectly.
Now, my DFVP, a filming and editing module, is one of the worst modules I've been scoring so far. It disappoints the hell out of me, because I know I want to be a director and I want to be a video editor. I do. I've always been in the shoes of a director whenever filming took place my whole life. My whole life. I wonder why something I want so much is so hard to grasp. I cry sometimes knowing I'm not doing as good and if I continue, I'm never gonna get what I want. Hell I want it so much. It won't matter if I get all As for the other modules and get C for this. Fuck I WANT TO BE GOOD IN IT. FUCK!
