Tuesday, July 31, 2007
7:56 PM
so many things today
There are so many things I wanna talk about today, but I waited til sunset coz I wana break fast first =D You all dono right?muhaha I fasted today, the second time. Coz last year I can't fast on certain days in Ramadhan because I had menses. So b4 the next Ramadhan starts, you have to pay back the ones you missed! I still have 5 more days to go... Oh well...
I had breakfast, which MUST be consumed b4 sunrise, then went to school quite early. Met Mad-jie and she started her story-telling, wasn't paying attention much but I act act I'm listening XD But I did listen when she said the store owner thought Mad-jie and Papa Gary(senior Gary from npcc) are bf-gf, LOL bt they are family lar. haha funny lor. Then all abt her guy and everything, forgot liao xD
Then school started. Got English. Quite nice to see Ms Goh again. But she was sick :( aw, then we had to do this survey. Alot of people sabo the school, including me. But truth is we're not really sabo-ing, we're telling the truth. Then they ask, do you respect your teachers. I disagree because I admit I don't respect SOME teachers and sabo myself oso XD Then science. PHEW Alvin Ng go bowling, don't need do tt mini-investigation coz really dono what to do lar. So blurr lor. Then recess WHEEE!! Siyi and Dini keep trying to tempt me with the chicken...
Dini : o0o0o0o Shafiqah chicken!!! (brings chicken closer to my eyes)
Me : =.=" yes yes.
Siyi : FOOD FOOD!! YUM YUM!!
Me: >_<" diao!! haha keep tempting me lar. but I'm NOT influenced!!! Ok,maybe a little xD so bad lor!! XD then had malay. Adiel and Muslim were....SLACKING!!! Not really showing it, but they were singing and saying crap. But they did lift the atmosphere up so it was pretty fun. haha had some good laugh there. Dini, Stephanie and I finished the compo. We had to do an emo compo. LOL my specialty ^_^ then I copied and give the paper to Dini. After that is History. GOT MY HISTORY MARKS. Guess how much? 4/24 MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Why I got such an AMAZING score:
-I'm not interested in History
-Didn't study much
-Wrote "crap"
-Everything "screwed"
-Never "put effort"
and bla bla yar yar... Well, had to admit what SHE said about 30-50% is true. But not all. She said I never put effort. errr... wrong? I put effort ok. But not in studying lar. XD in writing answers, I was like squeezing my brains out for brain juice to write a damn long thingy and she said it's what? CRAP!!! Total crapness!!!! Wahh my brain juice wasted liao~! She say "I know who put in effort" Ok maybe she was referring that to effort in studying, but I DID put effort in trying to write a fking damn long essay answer lor! If she said this is crap, dono what she say if I write a whole fullscap and fill it with as many CRAP I can fit inside. Just write CRAP CRAP until no more space. She say "I am VERY disappointed in you", "you should be having guilt inside you", "you CAN do so much better than this" and "have some faith in me!"
Er...You trying to put me in some depression or what? Trying to make me feel guilty. Guess what? I don't. Siyi v soft lar her heart, then I told her "my heart got this thick wall covering it. If I don't let you inside, no matter what you tell me, you're just hitting the wall. Not even TOUCHING my heart. But when I let you in, you just say one single horrible thing, my whole heart shatters" People think I'm quite COLD because whatever you say seems to have no effect on me, haha because of the wall lar. SHE say all that oso right, just keep hitting the wall not my heart. try poking my heart. No need, just touch and move it a bit, shatter liao! haha but I'm strong you know! Never tell people my shattered heart.LOL anw back to topic, she say I shoud be guilty and all that. I don't because my wall is blocking her words from my heart. If I just let her hit my heart, I can cry in class right there.XD good wall!! haha
Then she was like motivating. After contradicting(i dono wth tt means,forgot the meaning but Dini says that's best to suit her) she motivate. Say we can do it lar. yes yes... I don't believe you anymore lar. I mean, what is from History, of course I believe. But words from yourself, hard to believe. Ok I take back the don't believe anymore, but it's REALLY hard for me now to believe her. She lied to me. Ok my wall didn't work on that? haha nvm, she lied to me. That time she detain us say "I don't do this to other classes ok" That time, I saw 2E1 getting the same treatment she gave us. Anger flushed me, I trusted her. trustED! Now is very unstable. Like, should I believe or should I not believe. She could just be saying that and telling the same thing to other classes. It's easy to give trust for the first time, but after that someone broke it and wanted it back, it's hard to retrieve it.
Then she say " have faith in me" How to? Be truthful, don't go say SOME PEOPLE AR SOME PEOPLE like, instead of saying it straight, you go right left then tell but not fully. Ms Chia is good lar. She directly ask me why I never do my hw on time. I was honest. I told her, the truth and I wanted to change. I want to change because she believes in me and I can believe in myself. She has her bad points too sometimes, but I like her straightforwardness. And she nv ps me when she ask me why, hee hee.
What I think is relevant in HER words:
-never take work seriously
-Over-estimate one self
-Teachers are not 100% the reason why you fail, although they are some big impact
-and some other stuff lar.
Wah like, SHE keep targetting me lyddat. Stare at me, stare stare. Stere lar! My face so pretty? LOL jkjk, say think about it. Hm, wen I think about it, it makes me rlly confused. Like, i don't understand myself. Whatever lar! Wah so much to talk about JUST FOR A PERIOD! haha moving on, finally...
Home ec.We did pastry. Unfortunately, cannot eat. Then just now I ate, wah not bad. Dini and I were "fighting" wanting to roll the dough, then Mrs Luke cut it in half so we can both do it. HAHA good idea.LOL very fun. Shi Hui v pro. Her ones turned out so nicely. High marks confirm de!
Then go hall, get lecture from Mr Yap. Wasn't paying attention, not even looking at him. Never answer a single question, just stare at him, walk off and forget about it. Because that lecture doesn't affect me. Siyi alwaes ask me to sit in front, thanks to her I'm not included in his lecture whatever.
WAHH this post quite long eh. haha. Today Darryl play Truth or Dare so sian haf to say "You look pretty today" to me. XD LOL nice ar, ask him to tell me that. SO BAD!!! lol... ok lar, don't wana extend this post than it already is, and PS THIS POST IS OF NO OFFENCE TO NO ONE. WHO FEEL THEY KANA, IT'S NOT ON PURPOSE AND IT'S ONLY TO DE-STRESS MYSELF. JUST REACT AS IF YOU NEVER READ THIS POST XD bye~
Monday, July 30, 2007
6:19 PM
today bought a new hp strap, a jigoku shoujo thingy. v nice lar, but waste money sia $5 T_T nvm. Fuzzy nv call me for 3 days, but i seemed like weeks sia. I missed her SOOO much, then we meeting on Thursday YAY! ^^ can't wait. Ms Ho today ps Dini twice, lol pity her. Then she CONQUERED my lappy till now!!! T_T lol no lar, it's just that I was bored like shit xD then today got art. Waaah quite fun. Mr. Yap say need to stay back tmr, not today. Like crap lor! From Friday postpone till now. Stupid sia. Rather not go lar. Bakayero! Today oso no CCA, coz of N levels ^^ muhaha today Ms Chia was rather...shocked? That I handed in work on time. Her eyes were big, but she said that's because she excited or high I think so ok lar. Abel was high oso lor today. Funny lol. Then after school find a nice new HP strap coz my old one snapped, bought a v nice jigoku shoujo HP strap. And it has a bell oso, rlly nice. But costly. Then Dini came my house and played trickster. T_T boring!!! So I disturb her like siao. Oh ya she cracked my password, AGAIN! She keep cracking my passwords you know. >_<" need change it =P muhahaha. Ok lar, don't feel like blogging anw. Buh buais
Labels: lol
Friday, July 27, 2007
3:17 PM
BAAAAD DAY!!!not really
Today, sucks a bit. Lol but there's a good thing, a lot of things that were hanging with no ending came to one. I came school almost late, then got public caning. Wah long time no caning, so it was pretty horrible. Coz last year there was ALOT of public caning. This year so little sia, kinda miss it lolx XD Then after that the Discipline Department teachers ask us to sing National Anthem. SO MANY TIMES LORR!. Baka lar, then 2E1 and 2E2 girls and 1N1 boys kana ps. FK!! Tt new tcher say we have to stand, everybody else sit. Then have to sing. FK lar! Don't you know if people stare worse? Was like so pissed lor. Then I sing, but she kept saying "PEOPLE ARE NOT SINGING!!" Then nvm lar, maybe some people were not singing, I tried to keep it cool. Then she say stayback at 12.30!!!! Ok cool cool. Then class started...
Malay Dini got stomachache. So I accompany her. Then we slacked hell lot, told Stephanie some tips for History Test muahahaha Muslim was like "TELL ANSWER!TELL ANSWER!" >_<" Maths then I nv do 9e. I actually half dono wad to do, but still get concept lar. So she say stayback, then I say haf to sing National Anthem so she say after that must come class. Ok lor whatever. Then recess, boring much. But met Chandani after so long!! And Monowara, so miss them. Geog, ok. Mr. Kaan was praising Mr. Yap (IT man!) for being so kind to us. Thanks Mr. Yap!! =D After that English. Ms Goh said my nick punkrockingeek >_<" so pai seh leh. haha FYI, it's from three separate words. So please pronounce it as pUnk rOckIng gEEk. Enunciate it as if there's two G although there's only 1 lol.
After that we go hall lar wait 15 MINS FOR THOSE TEACHERS! When they come, say "Monday, come back at 2.45" AHHHH!!!! Coolness gone liao!!!! Get it over with lar!!!!! grrr... then after that go class and do my 9E. Ms Chia say I need go QAMS coz I can't catch up. NOOOO~~~!My worst nightmare is to get remedial. T_T I really don't want and trust me I'll do like alot of things to get out of it. So I told Ms Chia I wasn't paying attention and all that. She say that's why when I was building castles in the sky, she ask me for questions. Thing is, actually when I pay attention THEN she ask me for questions. LOL when I wasn't she thought I'm paying attention haha. Nvm, coz how I pay attention is weird. STARE STARE!! Like staring at Ms Ho lyddat, that's how I pay attention lol.
Then wait for Siyi for NPCC. Met Mad-jie, Mad-jie's papa, Gerlyn, Caroline and Danielle!!!! So at 2 when they change, Mad-jie, Dini, Danielle and me go home~ Otw met Abel, Rui Yi, Christin, Joey. Was There Angeline? lol dono, then go home talk to Danielle lots. Dini talk to Mad-jie. Quickly 188 came, so Dini alone awwww. hehehehehe...Danielle say I'm stressing?? err..... dono haha coz my pimples are OUT OF MY OWN CONTROL! Like Dini says it, my pimples are popping out as if there's no tmr lol. ok lar, then go home and play lappy till now. LOL ok bye~
Thursday, July 26, 2007
7:15 PM
Teachers ganging up to ps me!!
lol these few days, SOME teachers are ganging up to pai seh me!!! ok tts a lie,haha but they ARE pai seh-ing me nonetheless. Whatever lar, you don't like the way I do things, I prefer the straight approach. Wah Lau make me lose face sia, but that's alright coz I believe I can overcome any tackle given to me. MUAHAHAHA! Mean lol. Ms. Ho was like "DON'T say you never bring your CME file coz you always see me using it for History ok?" which I DID say that once when I did not bring my CME file because, I RLLY thought so. lol ya lar, I mean even that day she used part for the period for CME. Maybe she thought she'll get fired if she never do ANYTHING after a whole semester of ALL HISTORY and NO CME. lol good that she finally changed. Yesterday I was mad at her, as people know. She was like "2E1 was really good. Good this. Good that."BLAH BLAH BLAH!! Who fking cares??!! Lol sry I'm just angry. I mean, if she LOVES 2E1 so much, abandon 2E2 lar and adopt 2E1 since they're SOOO good and we're SOOO bad. No offence to anyone, but I hell don't care if they're so good. What I need to know is if we're doing enough. Then don't need to know who's better, we already know lar. It's obvious E1 is better than E2. Err...isn't that why we're in the SECOND best class? okok change topic...btw, Mr. Kaan was also targeting on me.haha I think =X
Then practice my guitar. Ok I can change chords okok, but then the sound will be so sucky. So now must practice the sound. Make sure good. Just now lit test I finished early. So I borrowed Jue Ying's Book and read. KC and Winston was "OHH CHEATING!! YOU COVER THE LIT BOOK INSIDE THAT STORY BOOK RIGHT?!OHHH KATIE!!KATIE!!CHEAT CHEAT!"
LOL >_<" but luckily Ms Goh knew and it was ok. lol besides that, we played softball!!!
Sort of Baseball but using a soft ball. It was SOO fun, but I totally suck at it. SAD but fun lar. haha. We were running like crazy being the fielders and when we were the batters, it was.... boring much. lol but I was OUT lol nvm.
ok done with the post. BORING post, lol nvm. Hey, I updated my blog but still NO BLOGSKIN!! Gahh sad... ok bye~
Labels: I'm siao, it is all my fault, lol
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
8:18 PM
little lizard die T_T
muahaha today was. abit normal but full of memories nonetheless. KC and Winston are siao-er than usual today, lol. I didn't know there was Science Test today, but who cares. Can't do much haha. Nvm, then recess. I ordered wrongly. GAH! Lol then I asked Dini to order and I waited. Because of some teachers in charge of Prefects and Discipline, we CAN'T SMUGGLE FOOD ANYMORE! NO~! T_T lalala whatever, then Malay. Was alright, History. Ms Ho was like " I know who did not hand in the worksheets and workbook. I know! And you should be ashamed. I know ok, I have it all in this piece of paper (class list) I checked. You should be ashamed" er.... ok, is it me or is she repeating the same thing over and over again? She was worse live lol. Aiya nvm lar, her right to nag. Or to her, it isn't call a nag. It's called a...reminder? dono lar. bleh bleh bleh and she say she don't care. No time to nag. GUESS WHAT?She IS nagging,haha. Can't fault her, it's her right to "remind" but still it's our right to get angry right? Which pupil smiles and is so happy getting scolded? Even if you smile, you kana scold oso. LOL Then homec, ok lar. Only 3 periods I was paying attention. Every other I was half-sleeping or building castles in the sky haha. After that was with Stephanie and Mrs Luke helping Stephanie get off that stain. Then at 3, went to Lot 1 with Christin. I wasted a lot of time, then went popular but Christin can't find the Fahrenheit Magazine. Aww sad. Then went home, shower bla bla. Boring day.....but
While we were in the homec office, a horrible sinful action was done by a murderer in the Class 2E2/2E1. It was indeed inhuman and unjust. May the lizard live happily in heaven.
Scene 1:Murderer saw lizard. A beautiful one I say.Look!
Scene 2:Murderer thinks it's "cool" killing an innocent lizard with hot stripes. Some people were bullying it. Very sad! But there was something worst. It fell to the floor. Murderer took the lizard and squashed it. He took paper on it and squash it mercilessly. It was a horrid sight, everybody pitied the hot lizard who did nothing but wanted to live its own life. Murderer than took out the lizard's heart with his own hands and show it to others. Everybody cried in fear and pity, sorry little lizard. This was what happened to the lizard. Sigh...
I didn't see this, fortunately. But it was told by some witnesses who have nightmares of this monstrous act. Who wouldn't? I mean, you can see its organs and everything.
Date HOT lizard died :July 24th 2007 killed/squashed by a well-educated 14-year-old Dunearnite.
Labels: pitiful
Monday, July 23, 2007
5:05 PM
haha just checked my tagboard. Benedict spammed MORE THAN 300 TIMES!!! meaning they deleted all the other messages lol. no worries now i deleted and kept one for memory xD anw today was fun. I wore the black malay costume, wear earrings borrowed from dini, necklace bought from Kyo. so it was rlly shiny and silvery? lol maths was fine. Then malay. Tcher let us have a free period, so slack muahahahaha my project got 23/30 ^_^ thought we'd get worse coz Mr. Suhaini was saying how our one sucks but I don't see why. I mean, we did have a good story. but nvm, 23 yay! haha highest is 24 i think. Then recess me, Dini, Chandani, Monowara, Mad-jie and Safura showed off our clothes. Every one of our clothes are different. Then we skipped Art lesson, haha teacher was obviously enraged but dono lar. We'll get it next wk I guess. Then VE, ask why is Racial Harmony important. OMG REMINDS ME, I NEVER PASS UP THE REFLECTION OF RACIAL HARMONY. AHHHH!! ah well, who cares xD Then pw. Slack slack, then Gary, Dini and Benedict spammed my blog "for fun" and my poor tags had to be deleted =( BAD PEOPLE!! lol just kidding, nvm lar. Benedict is so siao lor. HAHA v weird for a prefect!! lol then Gary and Benedict fight so cute. haha. Benedict was twisting Gary's arm with all his might. Gary had a weird expression on his face then when Benedict finish twisting, he just say " what r u doing?" With a confused face. I was laughing like shyt coz didn't expect Gary to just say that instead of OUCH or YOU SIAO AR?! haha then while they were fighting....
Benedict: Dini help me spam. Say Gary siao I give you $1.
Dini: o0o0o0o0o $1 OK!
Gary: Dini say Benedict siao I give you $2.
Dini: o0o0o0o0o $2 OK!
Benedict: You so rich ar? Ok lar, u pay $2 now.
Dini: YAR~! Pay $2 first.
BUT GARY'S AND BENEDICT'S ARM WERE SOMEHOW TANGLED AS IT SEEMED THEY CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF EACH OTHER, THUS GARY CANNOT TAKE HIS IMAGINARY $2 HE WAS ABOUT TO GIVE DINI.
Dini: ah well whatever (thinks : if i write tt they're both siao, I get $3 OOOOOOOO!!!!)
DINI TYPES, Gary and Benedict are si....
WHEN BENEDICT PRESSED THE GRUESOME "BACKSPACE" BUTTON THAT JUST ERASED DINI'S $3 AWAY. DINI FELT HEARTBROKEN AND DISAPPOINTED.AWWWW!!!!
ok end of story. They keep molesting each other, gah never seemed two gays so into each other. LOL alright, story of the gays are done. But I thought Gary is into Ding Hao, not Benedict. Waaah Gary two-timer lol. ok bye~~
Labels: funny, lol, nothing lorr, siao
Sunday, July 22, 2007
8:46 PM
today was full of stuff. haha, ok ytd i can't go church coz my mom said I had to go to my Aunt's house at 2.15 and reach my Granny's house by three.... gah was rlly bz. Then reach my Granny's house brought my lappy. So did some editing, I'm learning to be a pro editor muahahaha so far I'm doing quite good but still, good's not good enough. lol ok then today. Got my History Of Islam marks, 30/50 not bad. After religious class, went to vivo with my family to watch Harry Potter. I watched it online, but nvm lar watch it for the second time. The second time watching's alot better coz u understand a lot more. After that then go Earle's Swensen's, super fun doing the Sundae making rlly cool then went home. Before reach home I go to the doc coz my face is horrible. Trust me lar. It became a lot worse than before. gerrr Then shower and play lappy. Was abit short but fun-filling. heeeheee i'm practicing my guitar alot, and learning to play a song. Daughtry home, I can hardly change the chords. I didn't say I have no time to change, but I can hardly. Not bad for a beginner u know, hehe.
Quite boring actually nobody in the tagboard that seems to disagree with me. hoohoo, at least no disagreements weee. ok u know the malay song right? I wanna write the translation~~ I duno y i want to, lol but anyway, here they are written by me ok hehe...
Arrogant - Taufik Batisah (FIRST SINGAPORE IDOL WOOOOHOOOO!!!)
Some eyes on me, watching my every move
Is it true?
Who's braver?
The talkative one or the quiet one?
Try and explain.
Pre-Chorus
Just listening to others.
You do whatever you want, Why?
I became a stupid idiot.
Am I really in the wrong?
Who am I to trust?
Listening to others or news(with those lips)
Like this...
I still do have pride in myself
Chorus
Arrogant
You'll never know, I'm actually arrogant
Arrogant
This could be fate, No way out
SArrogant
Won't lose face to those lies
Arrogant
you can try but you'll never succeed
Everything isn't natural
Alwaes believe in yourself
We're humans
Whatever happens
I won't give in
Look at me in future
muahahahahah ok bye~~
Thursday, July 19, 2007
7:08 PM
life is confusing.the mind is complicating
today is a bit boring. My door knob? My Dad bought a new one and put it. Well, at least my old rusty doorknob got changed. Then I was chatting till I feel so depressed. Then my baby bro want come my room, i say ok come in. Then we were laughing and having fun tgt for an hour. After that I ask him go sleep and I sleep too. Today, I'm almost late....again. Then Maths, die liao. Nv hand in, ah don't care. Geog was funny. Recess was boring. Science best period. No teacher but Joey is a good "teacher" she control the class quite well. The whole class was quite and doing their job without any teacher. So guai. haha then music listen to church music. Some people are offended, but not me. I kind of wanna know about Christianity, since I got a brief trip to the Buddhism and Hinduism Temple and got a bit of their stories, but i don't know much about Christianity and I haven't been to a church. Estehr want me to go, but Dini can't go. I don't wana be the odd one out >< anw, then english. Weee my english got 20/30 =D will post an extended version about the story soon. Then homec test. Easy? But scared nv get marks.
They ask :
-Why is convenience food more expensive than fresh food?
-State 3 other disadvantages of convenience food.
-Give 6 nutritional info found at the information panel.
-Give 4 main reasons why they add additives in convenience food.
-Give 6 main additives types.
-What is "racid?"
-What is MSG?
-Give 4 ways on how to reduce the additives in our diet.
I can do all except for racid. Dono wth that means , haha. Then I go home, shower, chat with Atique and Fishy. Then play audi with mei. And met new people. Cool, then practice my guitar. Ahh I suck, big time. >_<"
and grrr no blogskin is nice sobs. I need to make one? Lazy sia, zzzz. ok lar, byeeeess
Labels: nothing lorr
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
6:35 PM
If only I would get what I deserve...
X.X been crying, and am crying right now. Lol coz can't make myself stop so decided to blog it hopefully it helps to uncry myself XD ok so ytd I was in a.... let's say HOT mood? I scold people and shout here and there but yet I'm not angry. haha ok sometimes I am lar, but most of it I'm not. Then scolded my baby bro coz he wanna pull my thumbdrive out of the computer and I scared will spoil lar. Then my mom scold me coz I shouldn't scold him THAT much...
Me: OI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mom : What oi oi? He only do like that must scold him issit? I'm the one that ask him to go there.
Me: Whatever! I oso dono you asked him there right? He go and touch that thumbdrive for what? Later if spoil, you wanna copy exactly like my lost projects all over again issit?
Mom : He just pulling it out when your com is off what? Won't spoil lar. I just want him to off the com switch. I dono you have the thumbdrive there.
Me: I oso dono you ask him go there. Will spoil lar, That time my Hist tcher want to print the slides got problem you know?! And I pull out nicely, this one pull like that how to work sia.
Mom: You need to be so elaborative? I just don't want youn scolding him like that just because of a thumbdrive.
Me: Whatever lar.
I got angry. Lock door, cry myself to sleep. That was a bit overboard but I hate it when my Mom/Dad scold me. Honestly, I truly love them. Damn much and no one could be any higher than them. When they scold me, I'd hate them. And I'll hate myself for that. Hating my parents. Never seen a worse behaviour in a child. And I can't hate my parents, love them too much. I mean, they are the ones who carry me through thick and thin, give me money, work for me, give me all this technology, give me a listening ear, and more. I just couldn't thank them enough, and now I'm hating them. I hate myself for that. That's why I cry. Coz I made someone I love so much scold me and me hating someone I love most. But still, I just wanted to know I'm loved too. oh well anw....
Then My mom keep knocking door since she lost her keys to my door and I just let her knock it. Coz I lazy mah. Want sleep more,hehe. I just sleep. She then ask my Dad to take the WHOLE doorknob off the door. Then my Dad did, now my door got hole. I don't like it. It's like my Mom don't trust me, that doorknob is damn important. It's a resemblance of privacy. And she's taking it away from me, meaning she doesn't trust me. That morning I stood strong, I know maybe a doorknob meant nothing to u but to me, it's important. I spend most of my time in my enclosed locked room and I HATE!!!! people looking at me doing stuff. I hate!hate hate~!!! And now my Mom don't trust me. I hate her actions. and now I hate myself. I keep asking myself "How could you hate your mom who's doing all this stuff for you? She's doing it for you and you HATE her? Damn you! You are some insolent child. Your parents don't deserve you" And I just break down and cry. I cried in the bathroom for like 20 mins when I'm showering. Then I started crying till non-stop. I see my mom, she's smiling. She's happy? Ok, and I kept crying. I closed the door, just can't lock it now. I cry til now.... T_T emo sia...
Labels: horrible day, I don't want to be emo, i must never cry, not an answer, Tears can neva fall becoz i never let them bt now they're falling even when i'm not letting them, why am i crying now
Monday, July 16, 2007
7:23 PM
HAPPY MOOD MAKES YOU WONDER
today was fun~ hehe if I spend all my days like this, my life's Heaven babey~ At school, I reached schooL EARLY! yea no lar only coz Mad-jie wan to do some stuff and I have to follow. Then ended up postponing to tmr,lol. Anw, then Maths. Er ok lar, understand a bit more. Malay, tcher gif angry face >=( waaaa frightening. Then recess do art lol. Art, then take Wei Ting's photos, lol. Haven't finish portrait yet. I lazy want to draw new one, haha. Then VE. AGAIN I nv bring file so sad. Better put at school or smth tomorrow. MUST! Ok then Ms. Ho's lesson again. Pushing us to do this, do that and bla bla. Luckily I'm not selected for Racial Harmony thingy ^_^ hee. Esther kana again.. lol. Then go Jurong Point. Super fun. Dini n I go KFC, then go shop here there. Like crazy people. Then we took SO LONG just to pick a pair of earrings for me =.= lol nvm at least got one. Then jalan2 this siao guy started talking to us wanting us to go home. Siao lorr, but I ignore. I was still angry at him lorr, do like tt siao. Then take 172 dini come my house. Then at bus we took photos. I picked Colour Effect Negative. Then my teeth black I say I look like ghost lol. Then Dini was like "err..we're at the cemetery??" Oh oops. Sorry horr. Don't mean no harm... Just saying that for fun horr. lol scared sia. Then reach home do siao stuff lar. Dini so cute doing the "hawaii-an dance" Everytime she does that, i laugh like siao lol.
Gah changing the song =D make it either english or something we all don't understand hahax. And so bored of this blogskin, but can't find a skin this good or better. hmm... better find one soon or make one myself. zzzz miss my audi dar honestly >_<" he ar~! Nv online at msn nor audi. Sad nias, I want strangle him lor! Lol...
I made this phrase "Happy moods never lasts. Anger and hatred never fasts" Means happy moods will turn depressing soon enough so be happy while you can! And Anger and hatred tend to EAT other's feelings. o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o lol so think about it yea. ok bye~~ I want to go for a search. A NEW BLOGSKIN!
Labels: lol, muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha post xD
Sunday, July 15, 2007
8:34 PM
ok since everybody thought I REALLY got highest for malay. Here's the truth...NOT! ok so I'm supposed to take the Malay Mid year 2 days after the real thing. when I go to the teacher, she said I don't need to as there are too many people that never come that day so I don't need. They'll use my CA1 marks as my Mid-year. heh surprised? LOL so I DIDN'T GET HIGHEST FOR MALAY! here, case solved. haixx I didn't really thought people actually believed I got highest, anyway.
Got my madrasah(religous school) Mid Year Marks... Arabic Language 18/25 YAY! and Tafsir ( meaning of all the stuff written in Al-Qur'an) 12/25 HEY! half mark only then pas! SOBS! there's more but only got these two. Let's hope my other subjects are better.
NEVER DO ART AT ALL! Oh shyt, I'm going to die... haha nvm lar, T_T so scared lehhhh... ok nvm. chill punk chill haha ok. zzz so sleepy today, don't feel like writing a long post. There are a few people I worry like siao about.
Fuzzy : Like always! Today she wanna kill herself. Haixx, if she kill herself then I'll do it too...
My Cuzzie : Suspected of Dengue but now ok. Then she never eat and drink. Probably becuz of the PSLE coming... haixx even I'm not like that. And I got an ok-ok score...
My "kakak" : err she's heartbroken.. sad...
and others that cannot be named LOL like DiDi HamHam and yea.... lol ok byezzzz
Saturday, July 14, 2007
1:18 PM
Yea posting again
PBJ : You don't make sense. You say i stink, I suck ( alot lol) and my blog stinks coz of me. Nonetheless, you still come to my blog and check the tagboard. Funny person you are. If I suck so much, why still pay attention to me? Want to get sore eyes har? If my blog stinks so much why do you keep visiting my blog? Want kill yourself coz of the stinky smell? hoohoo...
Lol I dono why I wana write hoohoo lol. Siao. Anw ytd was alright. Overslept, then reach school right before Mr. Bo close door. Go school wif Danielle. Then she want me to follow her go CCK CC so I say ok lar. In Malay class, I told Dini...
Me: Today is Kyo's birthday >_<" I dono wad to buy for him.
Dini: Um, I follow you go Lot 1 ar. Then we find what we should buy for him.
Me: Err, ok. But I really have no idea what to buy sia.
Dini: Nvm lorr let's just see what we can find.
Ok then Maths. muahhahaha I got 3/10. My answers were right, but my method was wrong lol. I use the basket=eggs method XD Then recess, lend Dini money. She say she give me next week so ok. Then geog, ok lar. Mr. Kaan quite funny today, so it wasn't so boring. English, Literature. Waaa copy here and there. everything copy sia. Like crazy copywriter. lol after that follow Danielle then she tell about this guy. Forgot his name, but if I not wrong his nick is XiaoCute. Lol dono lar, Dini follow us also. We went to CCK CC go eat. Wait for that guy, who is Picses, same as me~ Hard to find a picses you know, then he come. Err... short for a guy but ok lar not bad. Danielle say he cannot understand English. lol then he sweating like some sweatable pig in the air-conditioned McDonalds lol. After that they go Plaza Singapura Dini and I go Lot 1. Then our search for Kyo's birthday present!
First destination, Minitoons. Find really cute stuff. But then no presents for a guy. Then we go to accessories corner. All the cute scarfs! Cannot tahan liao. I put them on ask Dini what she think. then she say the purple one looks nice. Ok I'll buy it next time lol.
Second destination, Gift A Name. Nobody there, totally deserted. Go see see got this chain that we can put at phone. Got cat, mice, dog but don't have rabbit. Lol FYI Kyo and I we are rabbits lol.. Aiya no presents for him.
Third destination, More Than Words. Hmm Cute stuff. Then got CUTE scarfs. But Dini never let me check it out, sobs so we go find stuff. Nothing for guys!! Ahh I'm really frustrated sia. Dini watch me go crazy lol.
Fourth destination, The Bluez. First time coming. Squeezy like shyt. Then see all the scarfs not so nice haha. Got jewelry but guy's rings are so expensive . I was see-ing when Dini's BIG bag ( we have to bring all our books ome that day haha) hit the specs thingy. Then some fall. The shop worker was like "Be careful lar your bag! If any of them break you have to pay!" We know you @$%#@^&^*#(#&%&&@$^*&(**%&@^%*&(%^$$^#^ GRRR!! When Dini picking them up, I say " Let's go ar! This shop got nothing!" Then walk out arrogantly. Lol was pissed lar. I waited for her outside then we complain about that no-brain woman. haha nvm not going there EVER again.
Fifth Destination, Comics Connection. I know Kyo watch GetBackers and Nozomu Eien Gaiden but got nothing about the 2 animes. Sad, then my Mom call say "Why never say you coming home late?! Go home! NOW!" Hang up. WHATEVER! I just continued shopping. Then Dini want see the Comics. We check it out then nothing. GAHHHHHH!!!!
Sixth Destination, Popular. Nothing but still last resort leh. Really got nothing. Then we see even worse. See pens, pencils and stationeries but no presents. Found this little nice frame got words "Hey Handsome. Have A Nice Day" It was funny, but Dini don't like. So I never buy.
GIVE UP LIAO! Then we go clothes shops...
Giordano. Nothing much. All not I wanted. Then Bossini. See oso ok ok lar. The nice ones the colour don't suit me. So we go home. Dini come my house. Then we decided to go to Sunshine's Place. So we go. Then got this nice clothes shop. I go inside, wah not bad. But no present for guys. Geez nothing went to another shop oso same. Totally nothing, then go home. Dini go play trickster I go shower. Then I was so sleepy. While watching Dini play, I keep falling to sleep and waking up then sleep then wake up. Then my stomach grumbling. GRRRR! Angry stomach, Dini oso hungry. I FORGOT! She never eat at MacDonald's lol. So we ate. Then watch DEath Note 2. She wanna watch finish, ask her Dad fetch her home lol. Then after watch finish, go youtube and watch funny videos. Lol after that she go home. I play trickster, and while watching Ghost Whisperer I slept. I WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! Ahhh stupid I slept. Lol.
I did Journal today. Actually not that bad to write at a Journal, GLOBAL WARMING! Must reduce the usage of papers! And I prefer typing then writing lol. Ok Byez. Actually yesterday was the first normal school girl's day I had lol.
Labels: erm am I being too straightforward hehe sorry, hmm....too lazy and bored, I'm siao, lol
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
7:22 PM
Long time no post right?hehe. Yes becuz of school, and guess what? My CME, Geog, Music is still not done! haha and Art. Ah nvm, it's optional. Oh ya science oso. zzzz Ok this is what I've quoted from our form teacher....
"No matter where you go, it's the same! But if you go to a better school, it's worse"
DON'T UNDERSTAND! If every school is the "same" then why is the better ones worse?uhh??
"Are you waiting for me to say something? Are you supposed to say something?"
WHY ASK ME?! You want to say, you say lar! I have something to say?? Umm, if you don't know I'm a student and I have no say in...everything? Everything is planned and we just follow. If we don't, we get into trouble like this! A great example.
zzzz I'm SO angry at her. Well, cuz she disappointed me. You're disappointed at me?I am at you too. I seriously thought, you had potential of being a great, wonderful teacher. Honestly you are some teacher that stands out. And if you don't see it, I respect you because of your way of teaching. I admit, first impression was WAY off, but you can teach really well. So that's a need of a teacher. Yea yea I'm pretty rebellious but I do like your way of teaching, except for your lame sarcasm. I hate that, but sometimes it's ok.
Now you're just being ridiculous.MEREPEK! Do you think lecturing us like that will teach us anything? Umm...No? You did that on Monday, not even a "sorry" What have we done? Oh you wanna know our projects right? Ok let's see...
Geography : A vanguard filled about recreation stuff (2 weeks)
Music : An original performance or a presentation about an instrument (2 weeks)
Science : Science Centre stuff. Have to search for information (4 weeks)
PW : Filming, editting and paper stuff (3 weeks)
Art : A poster PAINTED about the environment (3 days)
CME : A presentation about 4 inspiring stories(real ones) (2 weeks)
History 1 : A presentation and file(with lots of paper) about (a)Food Shortage (b) Sook Ching Operation (c) The Black Market (d) Control Of the Locals NOTE : Each question has 5 points and we have to do all (2 weeks)
History 2 : Individual Reflection about History 1 (This was given BEFORE History 1 is done)( hand in with History 1)
History 3 : Pair work, decorate a mount board about a political person who has done a lot for Singapore (Again, before History 1 is done)(1 week)
Did I leave anything? Ok, this is it. Another note, this is only started on the first week of Term 3. Why? Holidays are supposed to be so that we can relax. No studies! No projects! No worrying! Dictionary, the word expert says Holiday : A day free from work that one may spend at leisure, especially a day on which custom or the law dictates a halting of general business activity to commemorate or celebrate a particular event.
I might be going overboard but I am MAD lar. Teachers I'm not saying you're doing everything wrong, projects ARE needed yes I do agree but please understand how many projects we have all at once. And um, speacially to Miss Ho I'm not saying "Wash your hands off me!" I'm saying scolding is needed once in a while but not going out of class because you never bring your file ONCE. Isn't that a bit off? If you don't think so, then keep doing that lar, it's only my opinion. Aiya pity Esther. Spray water on Ms Ho's face and kana go outside class for 2 periods sia. Or more, almost 3... Please, I was spit at, rice thrown to my hair, and more. AND the people who had done that got nothing as a punishment ok.The water is clean... Well it IS wrong but don't punish her until like that. I pity her, personally. And you detain for 1 hr 20 mins. FOR WHAT? Staring competition? Oh I stare you, you stare me. You need a sorry? I'm sorry if I'm offending you right now, but I am in no position to say sorry at that time. Why should I? Is thinking you converted History to CME wrong? Is listening and keeping quiet wrong?
I am not saying you should not punish them, I'm saying your punishments can be overboard at times. But it's my point of view, don't think it's right? Then ignore. I don't like complaining about teachers lar, coz it's their work and it's their job to do all this but... do that when things are out of hand and our class is still controllable, just a bit rebellious and noisy. You are some great teacher, I think. But you do need to think that some punishment you do won't change us. Asking us to go out of class once won't make us want to bring it. Just will make us hate you, which is wrong. We're rebellious, not wimps.
Labels: hmm....too lazy and bored, I don't want to be emo, i dono wad to think anymore, lol, my life doesn't suck, someone is always worse off than you, The sun will never shine on me like it did yesterday
Sunday, July 8, 2007
3:23 PM
Long time nv update, cuz projects here and there. Um, why is the Mid-holidays called a "holiday" when you haf to go to school and not relax?? It's only a so-called holiday but it's crappy shit calling it holiday.haha I'm angry lar, have to finish PW,Geog,History,CME,Science and more?? Dono lar. Until make Dini cry, dono who ar who ar make Dini cry **whistles and looks around** Stress like fking shit lar, make us so stressed for what. Alot off people break down coz of stress, unlike me. I'm a super care-free person and even if I haven't done most of my project, It's still ok! There's still tmr and I won't die because I nvr do project. Even if I have detention or scolding, it's not a death sentence. Even if I fail my exams, I can still do well in Normal Acedemic it's only over when the Death Reaper AKA Shinigami comes. So, be happy and think there's always a way out... hehe But dowan drop to Normal stream lar, very sad de from E2 sia. Lose face,lol. Anw today was 0k, first time late coming so still 0k bahs. Having a fight with my mom, zzz other than the phone we didn't say anything so each other, so yea. Then had malay, ok lar. Maths test, die liaos. I don't even know anything, so wadeva. Recess, Geog, Mr. Kaan was saying "don't do your project and half of your maximum marks is gone" =.=" can't help it, no time de. Then English was 0k. First time I saw that GIF image, I didn't focus on the door. I just nvr see, then glance once saw the "Ghost" which looks fake and the teacher even say it's a joke. hehe wished I hadn't seen it. It'll haunt me man, zzzz lol. Go home then cannot play Trickster so mad!!!! I wanted to go home early so I can play Trickster then cannot =.= then watch anime eat sleep wake up shower eat use lappy. LOL there's wad happened today haha. Going to write another chapter of my Vampire storyk, will tell when done. Peace, Ciao and do take care. Because ALOT of people are having cold now so take care. I'm pretty healthy thank god so for those with low immune system ,drink more vitamin C =D
So ytd was Live Earth thingy, I made a video ytd. Check it out, and watch till the end ok.
Online Videos by Veoh.com
Labels: global warming
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
4:55 PM
just writing crap...
Just got back from Hwee Bin's house, then shower. Let's see today, got Assembly phew didn't ps myself then these New Zealanders came so quite fun. Made Spaghetti Bolognaise YUM! hehe... Then Fuzzy call me. She's in ♥ lol... Then she say she love me. If you don't know, I recited another poem, and it's sucky but I did it for the meaning. And she said "Nvm I love u wad =)"
So Fuzzy, if you love me take care of yourself lar. sleep at 10pm, and be happier. If you love me, then you'd want me to not worry too much so don't be so sad lar, I know you're sad. But in every sadness there's a sun, only if u can find it. haixx just saying cuz I rlly dono wat to say, aku da ckp sampai mulut berbuih so I'm just saying this, if u rlly love me, then stop doing this to yourself.
When I was showering, I asked myself why am I so sad today and not like the cheerful me? I wrote using my finger with water on the wall :Kyo, Fuzzy, Myself and my friends. Kyo, haixx dono lar. We just can't leave this hanging, can we? Fuzzy, haixx worry me lar u ni. Tidur sampai lambat2, haf migrane some more, tidur lambat lagi ar. Baka, you have me yet you keep thinking you're by yourself. :( My friends, let's see Dini and Siyi lar. You guys have problems but don't want tell me lor. Nvr trust me huh? Haixx... I have ears you know, I can listen and if I try to tell you my story, just slap me (= Myself, I ask myself Kill me?Drown me? Hurt me? Make me miserable? Haixx... feel like killing myself, stupid right. Nk bunuh diri sendiri buat aper. Baka me baka me baka me, entah ar like I can't take this anymore. I wanna cry becuz Kyo is doing this to me, Fuzzy is so miserable and Dini/ Siyi keep bullying me. Dunno usually I don't mind, but today I feel so fucked up abt it. Today, I feel like screaming to them to stop irritating myetoday becuz I have enough irritation for today. But I kept it cool, I just rest my head on the table and forget it. If I keep looking at them I'll break down liao. I already wanna cry, but I blink blink then put up a happy face and don't look at the dark side. They will give me my things back, it always happen. It's not their fault anyway, it's me because everyday they bully me and I rlly don't mind in fact I like it. But today don't know lar.
I'm so mad at myself oso. becuz I feel I wanna cut again. STUPID ME!!!! ARGH, I keep telling myself "fuck u lar. Cut for what. Stupid right, cutting for nothing. Stop it ar, like this better if you kill yourself. Stop this fking shit lar!" Haixx.... Damn, I don't wanna fking cut >_< Shit this feeling can overtake me sia. Better throw all knives and scissors outta my room before it controls me.
Labels: I don't want to be emo, i dono wad to think anymore, i must never cry, it is all my fault, mcr avril akon dead suicide crazy stupid
Monday, July 2, 2007
2:44 AM
T_T sobsobssobsobosbosbobsobsobs
Haixx, today was alright. Had MILK run, fun actually. While waiting for MILK run to start, after 2-3 mths of not smsing I decided to sms Kyo. Yea it was some shock lol anw I did. And he was cold-hearted at first. OK here's the short talk we had....
Me: Hello. Still remember me not?heehee
Kyo:Ya :-) Wad r u doing?
Me:Sitting beside a road. Nothing to do, haha. U?
Kyo:Hanging out. So many things to do. haha
Ok this part I was so pissed at him. I vented my anger for a while then continued smsing him.
Me:Oh. Pity you. I thought you're having holidays now?
Kyo:Yea. Next week then start.
Me: Oh. Waaa so gd, can relax.
Kyo:Yea, so good not getting allowance.
So cold. YOU got this icebox where you heart used to be~!!!
Me: Aw money only. Don't go out lar, lol no lar. Y not take a part time job?
Kyo:No one to take care of my Grandpa.
Me:Ic. Is he ok?
Kyo:Yea. He's alright, just have difficulties walking.
Me:Ic. At least have you to take care of him =) Hey why u nvr sms me for so long? You trying to avoid me eh?
Kyo: No lar! Say anyhow. Who say? I nvr msg you cuz I have no money to top up my phone.
Me: Oh. I tot u avioding me. you still hanging out?
Kyo:Yupz
End of it!I didn't wanna keep giving him qns for him to answer, so I didn't reply til now nth. zzz BOY YOU GOTTA ICEBOX WHERE YOUR HEART USED TO BE! haha then I told Fuzzy. And Fuzzy was like "=.= he's ill-treating you like what you did to him last time rmb?" That rlly knocked me out. Yea she was so right. I was so cold just like him. But why are we both so cold to each other? That got me thinking. I shouldn't think of him too much but still can't help thinking, why why why how how how how now what now what now what. Damn I told myself it was the end and no more yet I'm still thinking. Fuzzy wants us to patch up, but I don't know. I didn't wanna wait and all that for him cuz I wanna show that I can live without him. Fuzzy told me hes doing the exact same thing. I'M SO BLURR WHEN IT COMES TO KYO! And Fuzzy's the one who's figuring it all out eh? haha anws, still don't know. Still thinking. zzz In this blog, everything's personal so no secrets between me and my blog. Maybe I still like him, maybe I even still love him. But he left me, so I thought my love ain't doing anything. So I ignored it. Sux man, I'm hiding all my likeness and love and trying to 4get him. But he keeps getting stuck in my head. He was the first guy I rlly rlly like. Meaning I rlly thought he wasn't joking about this. Then he just left me with a msg. I knew tt msg doesn't sound like him. It doesn't, if it was it would sound different, I don't know I think he was forced to do it. But I can't help but cry over this. I might still love him, but I don't wanna patch up. Not just yet, or most probably never. Fuzzy asked me to wait, but I'm not the kind that wait. Y u wait for a guy? zzz =.= see no objective of it. So mean of me huh? LOL but I just see no reason to wait. I just let him go, and maybe that's the reason why I'm in such a great mood recently. But now, it's so crumbled up again. Now it's immediate mood swing. Like first minute I'm so happy and cheerful. Next minute crying and dono y. Siao lar, haixx why does Kyo have to do this to me? T_T Why do I have to do this to Kyo? =( when you're in love, things are so hard to come by.
Labels: love is never spoken loud enough
