Wednesday, November 28, 2007
8:17 PM
Was browsing around when I realised I never talk about Alvin XD Ok, Alvin. An online gaming addict!! haha XD he's always bullied, coz he's born to be XD but I think he's just adorable. He sometimes have too much fun until he lost his dignity. He has his own MSN space. And MSN. anyway, he tell me pretty much everything that happens in Audition. He's been named a lot of things but he's alright with it cause it means he's close to them. He so shuai at audi lorr. In real, I don't know XD A flirt, be warned XD but flirt for fun only. I guess that's it, he never comes here coz I warned him XDDD but he tags alot at fuzzy's blog.
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Things are not so good during the holidays. My mom isn't letting me go to ANY class outing T_T and it sucks.. but oh well. I can't wait to see what's school's gonna be next yr. The homeroom system's making me feel super psyched! I'm taking triple maths~ If I categorize them, I am only studying 5 subject ^^ English, Maths [e & a maths,POA], Science [phy & chem], Malay [malay n malay lit] and SS =D yay? XDD
Things are not so good during the holidays. My mom isn't letting me go to ANY class outing T_T and it sucks.. but oh well. I can't wait to see what's school's gonna be next yr. The homeroom system's making me feel super psyched! I'm taking triple maths~ If I categorize them, I am only studying 5 subject ^^ English, Maths [e & a maths,POA], Science [phy & chem], Malay [malay n malay lit] and SS =D yay? XDD
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
5:16 AM
Watched Enchanted online. Oh damn was it good. Ok I wanna do a critic article on the story XD dono y LOL... but very informal xD
Enchanted is a Walt Disney movie about a girl named Giselle who escaped to the real world[where there's no happily ever after]. Ok, so I thought... nah, this girl's going to mess up the acting. But she didn't. She really did her role well and it really seemed like she jumped out of a fairy tale book seriously. haha. It just wonders me how she sew her dresses XD moving on. I realised something about the fairy tale characters. The good ones don't feel angry, just feel happy and contented all the time. It's like...they have no feelings and even if they do, feelings are useless. And they don't know why they do this and that in their own love story, which saddened me. The prince give a lot of humour XDD like when he called the TV the magic mirror and how the TV actually replies to him XDD
The one thing that could make this movie perfect is the ending. When I saw Queen Narcissa in a disguise when Giselle's about to leave, I could already guess the whole ending. How it will end. It's quite obvious, and the movie will be outstanding if you could just give ending a bit more twist to the ending. But I like the movie and how it ended very well. ^^ One thing, I found out that Disney refuses to make Giselle one of Disney's Princesses. because if that happens, they'll have to keep her popular all-time, which is very hard >:) anw, Neko should watch this XD and everyone else who believes there's no such thing as "happily ever after" ^^
Sunday, November 25, 2007
10:20 PM
zzz I feel lyk doing stuff I hate myself for doing again. Shyt, but I know I won't. becoz...dono XD Why do I always hurt the people I love? ): I really don't mean to hurt the people I love, but I did. Why do I always make them cry? Can't I be perfect for them? Why am I like this to them? Am I even worth it to be loved by them? Ok... I'm emo, no one can live a full anti-emo life,right? In any time, you'll just cry and hate and all that ^^
Sometimes, you just wana punch yourself inside out for what you've done. Why can't you just start being nice? Why can't you just be a good person? FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! That's what I am thinking now. I hate myself for letting other people shed their tears. I hate myself for doing all this. Does it change anything? No. It doesn't. I hate myself. Now, I officially do. Yeah, but it'll go away soon enough xDD I've been emo too many times to predict what happens next. If people hate me, I don't blame them. If they wanna kill me, I can understand why. If you hate me so much you ask yourself why you're reading my blog, I'm sorry you did.
If you hate yourself, it'll be better if you hate me. WHY AM I THINKING SO LOW-LY?! zzz i dono, i guess. I don't want my precious person I love ALOT to leave me. But if she hates me and leaves me, I'll respect it. Like my other friend. She's a really great person. I like her a lot. But she left me. Luckily, she left me with many good memories. I thank her for that (: Life isn't what you keep, it's about who and what you left and gained. Even if she left me, I gained more good friends. And they're just great. Love and hatred always come and go. It makes the world go round. If you hate me, I guess that's how it's gotta be. I don't hate anyone, I hope ><" Ok, maybe someone [my uncle] but I don't really hate him. It's just.... grudge. anw, cherish the people you love because you'll never know when they'll leave you and tell you gdbye.
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007
11:22 PM
ok so I'm reading this bk A Million Little Pieces by James Frey. It's RLLY popular coz Oprah Winfrey recommended it and it's a "true story" but aft investigation, it's not. STILL, it's an awesome story and I recommend it oso XD
to all emo ppl, this bk is great for u. There was a part where he use a clipper to cut off his stitches. It was.... you could feel his pain man. and it reminded my past of cutting off my stitches. But for me, a doc did it ^^ I didn't think the doc used amnesia. It felt like... like those blades are stuck in your flesh and is moving vigorously making such a painful and fking annoying pain. You feel like chopping that whole part of your flesh out coz it's seriously painful. You feel like the blades stuck in your flesh and the pain won't stop. You see blood, you panic more XDD I didn't think the doc used any numbing drug coz I don't rmb him injecting anything, but if he did, then what would the character in the story feel??
It's a REALLY good read anyone and everyone should try and read. This person, James, lost his life. He lost his life with drugs, crimes and alcohol. Then woke up in a plane and next thing he knows he's going to rehab. The rehab is cruel, but good for him. His Mom can't even look or talk to him, she'll just start crying. He vomits and suffer gastric pains every morning and a few time a day.Well, this is the start. you all should read and get into the story.
It's been criticised for faking "true story". but I read this article saying he tried to get it to become fictional 13 or around there times and FAIL. so he just made it like a memoir XD I don't really mind, a story is a story. Real or fake, it's a story. Maybe you'll feel more if it's real, but it's not. So, whatever lor. Don't go and sue the author for this because it isn't really his fault.
^^ so read horrs~!
Monday, November 19, 2007
9:18 PM
MY SUB COMBOS!
OK GOT MY SUBS COMBO!!! Yeah I feel so good coz I think I can survive with these subjects, and what I'm gd at, I got it =D let's see...
Compulsory subjects: English, E Maths, Social Studies, Malay
Elective Humanities: Malay Literature
Pure Humanities: NIL
Science: Combined Physics & Chemistry
Other Subjects: A maths, POA
Ok I escaped from BOTH geog and history! YAY~! Science, I kind of failed[but i passed] so I'm happy with no pure. If got pure, maybe I cannot handle (: A maths and POA, yay got BOTH! So happy de, all the subjects that I want. I'm in G5! To anyone who wants to check his or her marks, go here. NAs is here. I must shake hands wif Mr Wong >:) anw, I'M CHIONGING MY MALAY! ok I know I got A2 for my Malay, but that was dumb sheer luck. I need to really learn Malay and get As for both Malay n Malay Lit. Same goes for E n A maths [reminds me of A&E emergency place at NUH XD], Science maybe B, English A, Social Studies B/C. I have to share my happiness in my blog or I might explode ><" Bad thing is, I don't know much ppl in G5. I know Caroline, Shahirah, Nabilah, Faridah but neither are close to me T_T Hammy is in G6/7. Neko is in G4. LUCKILY SOTONG IS IN G5!!! yeah, Bear is G2, Piggy is Sec 4 next yr and Pengy go to 2E next yr.
Friends come and friends go. They stop by and soon just go. I can know new people in my new class, and I might keep some of 2E2 classmates. That's wad school is all about! ^^ And Fuzzy and Wei Yi are not going to be in the same class next yr. THAT'S OK! Meet new people and for once, escape Wei Yi's annoyance XDD I think that's why I decided to go where I want to go, not to discuss with Fuzzy with our schools. I know she thinks the same way too. =D
Omedeto to all Sec 2 streaming dudes. Be happy with what you have, who knows it's best for you.
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
10:36 AM
It's getting to my nerves, sorry y'all but it really has. Teenage agony. I REALLY hate it. One thing I've had it before. Another thing, yeah I don't mind if y'all think it sucks and you wanna die. Everything's dead, you can't even feel yourself breathing. Yeah, I know all that crap. Even if no one reading this post believes me, I do know. If you don't believe me, then wadeva. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS TEENAGE AGONY,AIT?! But if there's people who believe me, then I'm seriously saying everyone feels the same amt and capacity of teenage anogy.Believe it or not, ok? Even if something seriously bad happens, something seriously gd will happen so it's fair. vice versa.
ok I'm coming clean. When I had this teenage agony, I thought no one felt it like I do. No one will understand what I'm fucking feeling. But it's not true. I'm so stupid to think like that. Everyone feels the same, but this IDIOT teenage agony always makes you think this feeling is the worst. No one ever felt this low as I am. Guess what? There are.
I don't wanna offend any of u so ok, maybe I don't know how you feel. But I've been told I'm unloved before [literally], I've been bitchy and such a asshole in my past, I agree, and I regret it SO much I used to cry every night thinking I could never get these people's forgiveness because I'm such a bitch. I've NEVER been told "I love you" by my parents, I've never been hugged by my parents since I was 8, I've never kissed my parents after my Dad told me "I'm TOO old" when I was 9. And wen I see my little siblings hugging and kissing my Dad every night when he got home [my oldest adek is 9 now], I just wana cry. That's why I don't wanna see it, or more so I don't wanna remember. I've made TOO many people who care so much about me cry. I made my Dad suffer so much. Believe it or not, I keep forcing my Dad to do stuff I want, not I need. I keep shouting at my Mom and saying all those shit to her I shouldn't have. I never listen to my Mom's advice and always regret it later. I always takes things for granted. My uncle hates me so much and he don't wanna be a part of the family because of me. OK? This is MY teenage agony. I know you have yours too. And I know it can be worse, but I doubt. Because I thought like tt too but now I've realised everybody feels the same pain.
I'm only saying this because I don't want others to think the same stupid thought I had. The one that says "No one understands." It might be better if I died. But so what? Screw them. XDD
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Sunday, November 11, 2007
3:21 PM
Ok this morning was so insane. I mean my grandparents are so cute. I mean they fight, they always do. But I know inside they love each other to death. It's so cute lar. My Grandpa is the blur-blur and my Grandma is the stern but rlly nice person. So, it's a weird couple xD Last week I was studying for this religious exam, the topic is about Studies of God. So I was learning what will happen in the future. It says "a maid will give birth to her own master" Get it? Means we bully our mom like they're our maids. ok this convo was last week's...
me: a maid will give birth to her own master, a maid will give birth...[repeating to rmb]
nenek[grandma]: yes, you know last time we were never like that to our parents...
me: **listens**
nenek: you must learn to keep quiet.
me: but if i do that, later Umi[my mom] say I'm ignoring her
nenek: Nvm just keep quiet. It's a sin to shout at your mother. You can't even say "Eh"
atuk[grandpa]: Yeah, you shouldn't keep quiet. Later that mother of yours will get noisier.
nenek: your atuk talks crap. she will calm down.
atuk: Later your mom will take advantage and never stop.
nenek:Where got? You talk crap!
atuk: You say calm down. I do this, that. All wrong!
nenek: They ARE wrong.
me: **keeps laughing and listening**
atuk: Then you shout at me.
nenek: You DESERVED to be shout at!
atuk: You say buy fish, I buy fish, you say wrong.
nenek: Ya lar, that kerapu fish[a type of fish] is still in the fridge. You go and buy kerapu again for what?
atuk: You never specified the fish, so I just buy kerapu.
nenek: see? Wrong lar. People ask you buy grated coconut, you go and buy fried onions!
me: **can't stop laughing, until nenek and atuk realised I'm laughing**
nenek: See? Even Nurul laughing at you.
atuk: Nurul laughing at you making a nuisance about a small thing, right Nurul?
me: **keeps quiet**
Ok it was TOO funny. From the studies of Religion, become blaming each other. In the end, my nenek ALWAYS say "what a waste of time talking to your atuk" and walks off. It's so funny, both of them. Then this one was this morning... they had this thing in the Mosque and Alias Kadir was there to entertain. Atuk didn't like it.
nenek: Ytd was so fun. Alias Kadir was funny.
atuk: Where got funny? Mosque isn't where you karaoke.
nenek: It was GUESSING THE SONG!
atuk: What's with the songs? Why can't they choose religious songs?
nenek: It's Hari Raya. Religious songs you play every other day, hari raya you listen to Hari Raya songs what?
atuk: Ugh, they should pick religious songs. Don't karaoke these songs in the mosque.
nenek: Later no one come la! and it's GUESS the songs only.
atuk: Take nasyid, ceramah, these kinds of things are suitable in a mosque [nasyid :Islam band, ceramah: religion talks]
nenek: Later no teenagers will come.
atuk: Must teach them to listen to those.
nenek: If they never come, how to teach?!
...nenek looks at me...
nenek: see lar your atuk.
atuk: Where got wrong. I'm right, right Nurul?
me: er....
nenek: talk crap all the time. This one...
atuk: **diaos**
Ok my Grandpa DOES talk crap usually but he always kept everyone laughing. Then nenek gets pissed off and scold him. They're so cute. but they never think it seriously. They always end up laughing about it. Aww, like 2 love birds you know. It's cute to see 2 aged people scolding each other then laugh about it. XD well, guess this is all. I finished Life With No Regrets, hehe. A new story is already up, so read it! ^^
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
6:33 PM
ok my blog seem.... dead? XD anyway, ytd was super crazy XD well Fuzzy pei me go school to pass up compo. But my sis said she can hardly read it so I wanted to rewrite it but no time. So we went to KFC to finish my compo. We did.... some stuff XDD then met Sohila. She was just back from school to pass up her compo XD ok lor, so aft that we go. Then we were talking about boyfrenz. haha nth much to say.
Then walk walk walk walk walk walk walk go to sch. Security hold us up. He was like "what are you girls wearing?" I told him I'm wearing my class shirt so, I got away. Fuzzy, in the other hand, kana by him. He said she was going to disco. Then Fuzzy got MAD and was cursing him until she played audition xDDD So anyway, we went in, saw John. Told Fuzzy about his reputation in Dunearn, then hand up the compo and leave. I mean, I think the security guy is pretty fishy 0.o? oh well, then we went back. We talked about some crazy stuff, laughing like mad, then this guy who I know don't like me so much was staring at me. I, like ignore ar. If I'm SO pretty he can't resist, then be my guest to stare at my beauty XDDD LOL!!!
ok moving on, we bought water. Then "smuggled" it to the bus. Then went to Fuzzy's house. She then play audition and I played her PSP. I LOVE THAT GAME MAN!!! omg ok, Fuzzy I wanna steal that game!!! XDD ok then, she was finding her bro's pic. Then find find find. This death note ring we both have, hers was on this file. Then she flipped it up, the ring flew inside my cup of water. It goes "PLOP!" XDD then we laughed, and washed the ring, gave me new water XD and continue our stuff. It was so funny. Had alot of fun lar, then maybe tmr I can folo her to HER sch. ^^ can't wait, but my mom's like,.... don't go. Y need to go? How to go? that kind of thing T_T NOOOOOOOOO!!! She's making me like a hikikomori!!! AHHHHH!!! Help me!!! XDD ok end of post XD
oh ya the video on the previous post, can't watch it right?OK THIS MEANS NO ONE HAVE TRIED TO WATCH IT!!! EHHHH, WATCH AR~!!!
here's the LINKEEE~~2E2 pUnkrOckIngEEk's graduating video
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Saturday, November 3, 2007
12:48 PM
ok i haven't been posting lately coz,.... there's nothing to post about?? XD and even now, I oso don't know what to post, lol. For one thing, I missed the chalet. I mean I'm mad but don't care lar, I don't rlly like to think abt it xD anw, did a graduation vid [like alot of other people] n MUST WATCH N COMMENT OK!!! WATCH TILL THE END, THERE'S MY WORDS OF WISDOM XDD. when there's a 1e1 pic, the words were "still rmb the past?" then the next 2e2 pic, the words were, "will this ever end" i was too lazy to change the word colors XDD
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