Monday, June 30, 2008

7:21 PM

I've been thinking of this so now I wanna make this official. Open your eyes BIG BIG!

Ok that's it xD I've never really wanted to change my url before since I think it'll be a waste of time, but! This time, I figured that I should as people who only want to read my blog will know and will ask me for my new Url. So that's it xD It'll be more private of course, and for a treat to "someone" I'll be showing a bit of my imagination xD hahahaha, sometimes it's too wild for me to actually describe it in words.

Talked with my mom a bit, I don't like how she doesn't appreciate me telling her la. Wtf is she thinking lurh. I tell her I don't want to answer her calls anymore since she rudely interrogates me and just hang up like that, so not appreciating me that I answered her calls despite me knowing she'll be just as rude as her other calls. She so fucking don't appreciate me la. When I tell her, she just "OHHH YESS I'M RUDE WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU. OKAY" And then shut up. WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT IS SHE TRYING TO SAY! I'm damn pissed off at her la, i tell her then she fucking sarcastically say sorry la. When I say she's sarcastic, she goes "OOOHHHH I'M SARASTIC. I SEE" DON'T FUCKING MESS WITH ME LAAAAA WHAT THE FUCK!!! Damn pissed off larh. I don't feel like talking to her anymore lor. What for talking to a person who doesn't appreciate what you're trying to say sia.

In the end, I blame [myself for causing all this trouble. I shouldn't have told her how rude she was. I shouldn't have lost control of myself and tell her everything as if she's going to accept everything peacefully. I shouldn't... I shouldn't... I shouldn't...I should have just acted like a stupid dysfunctional person and fucking shut up. In the end, it's not her that I'm angry with, but me. Cause I shouldn't think people are so pure to accept what you want to say. People are twisted, frigging twisted, and I'm one of them.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

9:18 PM

I found this quiz at Tako's blog and find it really interesting. So I ripped it off xD hehe, gomen!



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8:41 PM

wah first post since term 3 has started. Let's get real with this, the new SS tcher makes a really bad first impression, life ain't gonna be any different here on, etc etc...

First day of school. Damn normal. I had to wait for everyone (either I'll be late, or Hammy & Tako will xD) and Neko came in last second. Danielle took the bus later than me, blah blah too normal xD Oh ya the timetable sort of rock xD I like the timetable a lot alot, bt I think they're gonna change it again next week T_T don't want. Monday and Thur, 2.15pm. Tue and Wed 1.05. syiok right? Why won't it stay that way? T_T

Second day of school. There's this new SS tcher, called Nadiah (I think?) She really reminds me of aHou la. Actually not me at first, it was Hammy then Neko, then me. She makes me go O.o? I'm not that pro and all, but all the teachers tt are like her tend to get weaker and in the end, lose whatever they want to grasp at the start =/ This tcher will most probably be the same. When I see her, my heart cries, "Why aren't there teachers like Yankumi? WHY aren't there teacher like Onizuka? Why aren't there teachers like that?" Oh well, it'll be fun to see how she turns out in the end. Finally, something interesting at school. I wonder if she can even handle the whole Sec 3, since we're a crazy bunch and all xD
Sometimes, she turns out to be ridiculous. She gets angry when some guys don't address her with the title. She gets angry when we don't get interested. Well, there's a good reason. You're not making it interesting, then =/

3rd day of school. The maths test was unexpectedly fun. I freaked out b4 the test coz I never study and all, but then I know how the qns are supposed to be done and all, so it was fun xD I don't know if I'm gonna pass though =/ scared I'll fail! >_<" If I'm not wrong, someone I have a grudge on laughed at Hammy. Can't remember much, but I was damn pissed at him o.O? I don't even know why I have a grudge on that guy. Oh well, I don't really care. It's not like I know him xD

Today, PE was ok. Did a bit of badminton, SYIOK!!!! Was having SO much fun sweating xD haven't really sweat in a while xDD Then SS. It was stare-at-the-tcher-and-act-cool lesson xD Then VE Mrs Lee is damn cool la. She lost 8kg and still maintaining! I admire you, Mrs Lee! Teach me how to diet and give me some advice, senpai! xD Aft recess was English. Tcher keep staring at me? Then once she called my name, luckily someone answered for me xD I guess I was spacing out too much xD haha, what to do? When I don't know anything, I space out! xD POA is damn boring, actually today was hella lot more boring than usual! I was so happy to hear the bell ring sia! Time to get out of hell! The tcher is damn very nice, but I really can't understand him and when I try to listen, my eyes close x.X Anw, so far it's been good. Actually, this whole year has been alright! Loving life so far xD haha, when my mood swing goes back, I'll go "life sucks. ha... ha I don't want to say anything" again xD

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Friday, June 20, 2008

10:09 PM

omg it's already Friday

OMG it's already Friday

OMFG IT'S FRIDAY ALREADY!!!!

everyone already ready for school? I sure haven't xD this whole day I wasted my time finishing my jigsaw puzzle I bought ytd and yeah, I finished it xD

Yesterday was fun la, although it was stagnant at times o.o i guess we were hikikomoris during the holiday, that's why xD Neko, Hammy and I watched Get Smart, it was friggishly funny, it's not THAT funny but the humour is damn uncommon, which made me laugh xD then bought Lilo and Stitch 500pc jigsaw, and went to my hse. we were weirdly quite quiet compared to out normal times but it was fun, laying back and not rushing at all xD played some games but I wasn't much help xDD

I'm watching 15 yr old blues, Tesshi is inside and I really pity him. Today I was damn stagnant, aka blue xD, so I wanted something to cheer me up, unfortunately there wasn't. Then I watched 15 yr old blues and was nodding all the way, like "yeah, you get tt sometimes" or "I do tt too" xDD but I like the storyline, unlike LIFE their genres are almost the same, like "about-the-depressing-kid" storyline but LIFE didn't catch my attention on the first epi.

15 yr old blues 4-episodes drama is for those who think they'll stay emo that way. If you think you're alone in this world and it'll stay that way, then you should watch this, I think xD I'm still watcing the third epi. I like the teacher in the drama, but I don't like how he'll just easily say "I'll believe in you" EXCUSE ME? "BELIEVE"is a VERY strong word, at least for me xD I think believing is the biggest factor in life, as for me I don't wanna trust people anymore. I tend to believe in people too much, regret that I did, and believe again. So I'm trying my best to restrain from believing in anybody anymore, I'll be like BOOKMAN!!! XD

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

8:06 AM

weehee back to blogging.. I've been ignoring the tagboard for a while... let's see....

Shahirah & Gwen: haha, rlly? Wahh so good. I must work hard so you won't beat me in the EOY! xD
Jueying:DYES is ok la. I prefer keep the faith xD
Dini: lol~ well, i learn smth out of it xD
XiaoXing: can't find? then how???? ><" lol wanna watch ar, tt movie cannot buy too much popcorn. you'll laugh so much until choke xDD Christin: lol ok, we settle. finish our mini CS ok? xDD ok ar, when sch start!!! xDD

woohoo woke up early today xD woke up at 3 because of some damn noise, then do nothing but solve online puzzles. I'm getting hooked to jigsaw puzzles, I want to save some money and buy a 100 piece puzzle or something, can't do hard ones yet must go step by step, desho? xD

AHHHH NEXT WK IS SCH~~!!!!!!!!!!! YABEIII~~~~~~~~ i still want more holiday!!!! BOOO!!!! T_T can't believe 3 weeks is gone like that, oh well at least sch is also about 3 weeks, coz after that is all test AND STUDY LIKE CRAZY MODE, then 1 wk of holiday. another 2-3 weeks of STUDY LIKE CRAZY MODE, exams, check and EUREKAAA~~~~ it's end of the year! BANZAII!!!! BANZAII!!! not rlly end of year yet, must keep my enthusiasm xDD

oh yeah, just realised i got more phobias since this holiday!!! ARggghhh, these are my phobias that i have now or at least had: -

angrophobia - this is not so bad, but I'm quite afraid or getting angry x.X I'm scared what I say might hurt other people, coz I do it at home and I've seen the effects. So I really don't like to get angry, even if it means driving myself mad.

phasmophobia - fear of ghosts. who doesn't? An image of a damn tall lady in white, robes with frizzly gray hair is always on my mind at night. xD



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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

10:12 PM

I better start mugging for POA siaaaaa.... Scared I'll waste my holidays just like that. I did some stuff last week, but they're so little T_T anw, FUTATSU NO KODOU TO AKAI TSUMI FULL VERSION is out!!! lol, I was so slow la, but yes finally it's out~~ I've been waiting like crazy for the full version. AKAKU AKAKU AKAKU YURETE~~~~ lols...

Last week, I just figured I got low EQ =.=! Since people said I was emotional, I thought I had high EQ. zzzz but found out from my mom that emotional people are low EQ people, coz they get emotional at almost everything. High EQ people know when to get emotional and when not to, and since then I'm like... very dead, zombie-ish x.x Maybe there really are things you prefer not to know, coz low EQ is a bad thing, after doing some research. Good thing is... well, nothing xD

Oh ya, does anyone know how to reset WMM? I mean, my WMM, Windows Movie Maker is spoilt and I wanna re-install it, but that's the problem lah. WTF ZZZZ I REALLY REALLY need to use my WMM so if anybody can help me fix my WMM, you're my lifesaver!!!! (but unfortunately being my lifesaver is voluntary work ^_^v)

zzzz I don't know what else to sayyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hmm, now that I think of it, I'm ruining my life plan T_T Well, I planned to work since 15 but I'm not working, seee *slacks* Grr I better Ganbatte before I ruin any more of my life plan, since it's damn important. If you want to achieve what you want, you better be prepared for what's coming. Yosh, ok nothing better to say xDD You DO know what is my life plan right?? Ok, if you care to read, then...

1)Start work at 15, and save to get a car by 20 ((:
-It's cool to drive you know xD So I wanna drive to uni, so cool xDD then I can show those frigging arrogant people who I really am xDD
2)Get a frigging 10 points for Os, and go to a frigging good JC.
3) At 19, take the license to get a car. If I fail, there's still 1 more year to go! xD
4)Get recommendation to teach English in Japan. Teaching Japan is already a well-known ambition I've set on xD but yeah, if you're recommended then you'll get 99.9999% chance of having a job there xD but to get a recommendation, hmm....

This is roughly the idea of my life. I haven't really planned any "When I marry" plan or "When I get kids" crap. But ar, IF I was lucky enough to really teach in Japan, and IF I was lucky enough to have a guy attracted to me there, then I want to drag him here and ask him to live here xD I'm not going not be like my Aunt and live far far away from my family, forever. That sucks xD

Ok end of my CRAP POST. Help me think of a good thing for having low EQ please T_T and btw, I think my old habit is coming back T_T ARRRGGGHHH get it away from me!!!!! T_T If it really does come back, I'll post it up. Let's hope it doesn't ): I don't wanna live my life like I did about a year ago, where I was drowned in depressing thoughts. EEEE no no don't want that, shit what's wrong with me? I say I don't want, but I still really want to do it. Ah ok whatever, I've quit and let's REALLY hope I don't do that again, PRAY FOR ME OK?! =DDD

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Sunday, June 8, 2008

6:04 PM

I had some day ytd. Well, ytd the Union has set up something for my family (for Father's Day, I think?) then like got a lot stops but I was waiting for the last, final stop. It was to watch Kungfu Panda xD Hey, who doesn't want to watch a movie tt premiered on the day itself in Orchard Rd for only $5?? But my Dad paid so it can be considered free for me xD

First stop was this Salmon factory. We passed by the factory that exploded the day before. Actually, I didn't know it was burnt out. I looked at the workers working, then saw this burnt up place O.O! Weirdly, everyone knew why except me =.=" Anw, the Salmon factory was okok. The smokehouse STINK!!!! But everybody got to taste Salmon ((: I tried the Salmon floss, it tasted like any normal dried fish.

Then 2nd stop was this hydroponic farm. Damn interesting, and my mom bought some plants. I really like this plant she bought, the Japanese Rose. Damn nice la, the flower. BUT, next morning I saw the flower close up =.= Is it going to wilt or is it supposed to be like that?? anw, it was interesting.

Then lunch. I managed to ask my mom to buy me a $5 shirt xD then 3rd stop was otak2. DAMN BORING! NTH to see at all, but at least get to buy la. Then after tt, go to Lido for KUNGFU PANDA~

Overall, it's very.... entertaining. And it ask ppl to believe, when I was watching the movie I no longer believe in people anymore (or most) so I thought it was good for me to watch after becoming such a person. Unfortunately, I am still a person who doesn't believe in people xD But I like how they conveyed the message. It's telling y'all tt you can be whoever you want to be, whatever you want to be, as long as you believe! And there's no need to have any special ingredient to be special, it's all in believing. YOU SEE, I posted about believing just a few mths ago and it's in a movie even! xD

I give it 4/5. It was very funny and a cheering up kind of movie, but the story wasn't so heavy, not so solid. Ppl who like to watch stuff just to laugh off and not so much for the plot then watch it (: End of my review on Kungfu Panda.

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Thursday, June 5, 2008

7:54 PM

Ahhh I'm kyaa-ing over KAT-TUN like crazy today xD Well in the morning to the evening, I was kyaa-ing like crazy about Kame. AHHHH KAMEEE *here I go again*

Then, in the later evening, it was Nakamaru and Ueda... And now it's, AKANISHI OMG AKANISHI IS SO FARKING HOT HOT HOT HOT!! ^_^!

You just can't not go crazy about them. They are way too hot, if they are any hotter they'd get arrested for being too hot xDDD I was reading and staring at Akanishi so much I was worried I would nose bleed xD

anw, yes I've improved my handwriting AND I'VE SUCCEEDED! SO YOU PPL DON'T EVER SAY MY GOALS ARE TEMPORARY, CUZ THEY'RE NOT!!!! When I'm determined to do soemthing, means I AM DOING IT! >:/

ok that's it for today xD Fuzzy called me like twice today. ahh I missed her and I rejected the HOT HOT Takaki Yuuya for her, you know! See how important she is?? xDD

Monday, June 2, 2008

4:42 PM

wahahahhahahaha 1 wk of holidays is gone =DDDD let's see what have i done in the last wk xD

-watched dramas like crazy. I've watched:
+Tantei Gakuen Q
+Attention Please
+RH Plus
Still watching:
+Nurse Aoi
+Galileo
+SP- Security Police
+Koshonin
+Zettai Kareshi
+Osen
-DONE MY HW! xD Except for the SS which you HAVE to go to sch and use the com there, no matter if you have a computer or not at home.
-cleaned my rm~~~ xDDD It's not spotless but it's clean =DDD
-watched the long awaited, KOIZORA~~~ Omg it's so damn sad T_T until now I still feel sad for Hiro x.X
-found a software for remixing songs! woohooo but it's damn hard to understand so I need some time to actually understand what I'm doing xDD

I guess that's about it xDD haha sounds like I've been wasting my 1st wk siaaaa!!!!! zzzZzZZzZZz, now my head is thinking whether Neko still angry at me... hmm... Oh well, at least I said sorry and I need to know what I did first, THEN I can repent ^^ bwuahahahahahaha...

Oh ya I wanna seriously study POA from now on! zzZZZzzzZZZ I'm really pissed off at ppl who underestimate me and I wanna show them what I'm made of... IRON!!! muahahahhahahahaha I sound like Superwoman or smth xDD anw, I don't like it when someone say something which I think is not true. I'd prove it to them that I'm not such trash they think I am =DDD

Anw, don't waste your holidays horrr!! xDD must use it wisely coz there's only 2 long holidays in a year T_T

*About Me

The name is Shafiqah.
I may not be liked, but am definitely loved.
I no longer give a damn to people of different views from me.
The people of the same views with me are loved.
I have big dreams and a big confidence to achieve it.

*My desires

~Watch Gokusen Movie and Coraline in the movies
~Get at least 1 Gothic Lolita suit
~Finish my list of "After O levels"
~Remove all my pimples
~Lose 10kg by January, 31st
~Get The BEST Of Aqua Timez Album
~Form a band

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