Tuesday, February 23, 2010
12:37 PM
I shall rant about work. Work is.... 13%@^$^%#%!#$!#%#@%!!!!
I'm very angry and pissed off. Okay not now but during the whole time when I'm working. First, he praises me saying I can do stuff right whom his previous staff can't. Wow, I don't really care so yeah... THEN he goes "why can't you do this and that right?" Wahh, I angry lei. I cannot do, you fire me take ur old staff back la!! Wtf, I angry sia.
And everytime I ask things like when's payday, or if I can off that day, he'll think I'm trying to run away or something. Please la, I'm not so childish to run away just because work is tiring =___=" Work is tiring in the first place and got no work where it's not tiring one lor. Wa lau lei, seriously I can't wait till end of March.
And what's so funny is, he's always angry only when there's a lot of people. When there's no one, he won't ever scold me. Isn't that just implying that he's only scolding me because he's stressed, not because I'm doing something wrong? And I only worked there quite recently, I'm not some genius that can do everything perfectly the first month I'm there!!!
If like this, I really do wish to run away after first pay la! And my first pay so f-ing tiny, I can't really buy a lot of things with that. ZZZZzzzzZZZZzZZZ I can only curse in Japanese silently.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
9:17 PM
I was simply watching TV, when I saw big bang and watched a bit. Daesung was singing one of Wheesung's songs. Ahhh Wheesung!!! I love him, seriously... Much more than Big Bang I gotta say. Love his deep songs. His songs are so emotional and loved...
They rock so much and he does. Try take a listen and you'll know why.
8:21 PM
I don't know why. but I'm starting to feel remorse. If only I had done better for my O levels. If only I studied harder. If only I stayed up longer. If only I looked up higher. If only... That's the only thing I could say now. If only, fuck. It just sucks. I don't want to end up with this lousy O level results. I'm not proud of it and I'm not satisfied.
But what the fuck can I do?! It's all over. I'm stuck in a Poly now. It's all fucking over. And even if I feel so regretful, my results are never gonna change. It's gonna stay that way forever. A bloody 1 A, 4 B, 1C, and 1E.
No wonder I didn't even feel a little bit happy. So what if I beat Weilun?! He fucking beat me in all his good subjects. SO what?! I couldn't beat him in FUCKING E MATHS AND SCIENCE!!!! All my studies put to nothing. NOTHING~!!! After all, I'm just a loser. I told myself to go to JC and see where I am. The very reason I told myself so much to go JC IS BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL END UP IN POLY JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! THE REASON WHY I MAKE SO MANY DREAMS BECAUSE I KNOW IN THE END, IT'LL STAY THAT WAY! I know that more than anyone else but why I am still fighting for it??!!! WHY?!!! WHY AM I STILL FIGHTING FOR THE PLAIN, STUPID DREAM?
Why?
Thursday, February 11, 2010
8:20 PM
Just when you thought the job was just right for you, something happened telling you it isn't.
Got a new job and it's super near ~! Which is good, yeah and another good thing is it's F&B, exactly what I wanted too. Bad thing is, I don't know suddenly last Saturday I started getting sick ):
It started with a bad sore throat in the morning but I ignored and continued my usual life, dramas anime and the like. Then I started getting a slight fever and was a bit worried. For F&B, it's quite heaty since you're cooking everything so I called but since the place needs more people, I had to be in for work and since it's just slight fever, I went. I felt like dying halfway but my lips were tight and when I got home and checked, 39.2 deg C. Took a couple of panadols and slept.
Next day was the same. I couldn't eat, sleep or do anything. I walk like a turtle but I took a couple of panadol EXTRAs this time and went to work again. Wasn't as bad as the other day but still sort of died halfway.
Monday couldn't take it and went to the doctor. Temperature was 40.3, everyone was simply freaking out and I had no idea why O__o? About 10 minutes later, I got to meet the doc (which was fast, considering it was a Poly, haha was given more priority due to my temp) and bla bla 3 days MC (woots!) and practically nothing else. I SLEPT FOR THE REST OF THE DAY!
Tuesday was nothing much too. Wednesday went to work, didn't feel that good but was fine. Went home and vomitted (Yuck!) but felt much much better.
Now I'm only stuck with cough and running nose and a bit of sore throat. Yatta ~ ! Well just hope I don't get sick again because working when you're sick sucks!
