Thursday, December 18, 2008
9:30 PM
Yeah i'm blogging again! I just realised how I love ranting~!!! Oh yeah before that, let's reply to the tags!
FROGGY: sure will!
jun:ehh, reject huh? xD see la u nvr go EOY... should go, can bully Beaver alot a lot tt day xD
XiaoXing: lol i c u i c u, there there got your name one? xD
ok done... xD haha I love ranting! Maybe I should make a ranting video just like nigahiga's... I can even rant about ranting!!! ahhhh okok back to the REAL topic....
what would you do if one day, you decided to let your other self break loose and realise that other self mihgt be real? As in, he might really be someone that is not you but is stuck in the same body as your are and has the same brain?
One night I decided to let my Sis talk to Alvin. And guess what? He came out!!! HE seriously did, and he talked and talked and then I sort of gained control then I was like... "I have no idea why I say like that!" I mean, I know what he said and all, but how he said it, why he said it is nothing of my control! I don't even know why those words came out of my mouth... okay, too weird =/
but whatever! I'm a girl and this body is girlish, so it's my body and he can't control it, for now... xD
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ever felt like something inside you is happening yet you dunno what? Ok, I am 94.6% sure that I have this. I know I'm insane and crazy, but I am that sure that I have this... why?
1) I went through most of other disorders and they are nothing about what I'm going through
2)I took about.... 10 quizzes and all of them seems to tell me "yes, you have it! You're crazy!"
3)I know I'm at least half crazy coz I have cut myself and I'm fighting to keep clean
4) I don't want this!!! When you seriously think you're crazy, it's a different situation than when you wanted to. You try to watch yourself and proof that you're not, but you just keep doing what it says.
It's stupid but yeah I tried to stop or change myself but it might make me more crazy than I already am so instead, I'll put it up here :DD If you think I don't have it, then THANK GOD I'M NOT CRAZY! If you think I do, then just keep quiet about it (:
People with BPD often have highly unstable patterns of social relationships. They may form an immediate attachment and idealize the other person, but when a slight separation or conflict occurs, they switch unexpectedly to the other extreme and angrily accuse the other person of not caring for them at all. Even with family members, individuals with BPD are highly sensitive to rejection, reacting with anger and distress to such mild separations as a vacation, a business trip, or a sudden change in plans. These fears of abandonment seem to be related to difficulties feeling emotionally connected to important persons when they are physically absent, leaving the individual with BPD feeling lost and perhaps worthless. Suicide threats and attempts may occur along with anger at perceived abandonment and disappointments.
Well now that I think about it, I feel better now since some of the symptoms seems to "fade away" but they come back >.> Crazy person... xD
