Saturday, September 6, 2008
10:40 PM
doumo? haha haven't been blogging for so long sia xD anw, been listening to a lot of emo songs lately, by the all-time favourite
I'm like addicted to Easier To Run, coz I can really feel like how they sang it. Yeah, damn emo though. lol.
oh yeah, sch is coming back! Time to study ppl! I don’t have the motivation to study sia, that fact shocked me =O becoz like, I keep having motivation for so many years without knowing where they come from, but now it’s gone. NOW I know what ppl mean when they say, “Fail, fail lor” xD haha. I don’t wanna care if I fail. At least if I fail, ppl will not think so much of me. And I won’t feel I’m underestimated =/
Have I told you guys before? My baa-chan is sick T.T My NaiNai can’t eat anything and can hardly move but she’s still doing her daily chores, WHICH IS A LOT! She wakes up like at 4, showers, cooks for my YeYe, cooks for Fatariz (my cousin who’s under her care), handle Fatariz’s pettiness (it runs in our family xD). Pretty much she does almost everything la. She cooks, she washes the dishes, she does the laundry, she cleans the house, she takes care of Fatariz all the way, and all. I’m damn worried la coz she’s so damn sick now X.X when I see her sick, I was like, there’s nothing I can really do to ease all that pain.
I’m scared. I’m very scared. What if something were to happen to my Grandma? I don’t wanna think about it, but when I do I’ll really get teary. She takes care of me since I was born, I don’t wanna her to go. I want her to stay until I marry and have kids. I don’t want her to leave me, she’s the only one who seriously understands me. She’s the only one who knows my true self, even I keep some of my true self from my mom and dad. I don’t want her to go. God, don’t take her away. I need her, please. If she were ever to return to You, I’m afraid I can’t handle it. So please.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change
[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
