Saturday, August 30, 2008
8:33 PM
Well, my reply for jun? xD
haha I don't know, you looked like you wanted to tell me something yet you try not to. Oi, just tell me ok xD I don't tell ppl's problems. Your problems are yours to keep, I'm just here to listen (: Maybe you liked to be noticed, everybody likes to be noticed! It's just how you try to let those ppl notice you.
The very reason I dodged you was because I thought you treated disturbing me as a game. And in a game, when there's an attack there's always a dodge right! xD haha don't take it too seriously, when I dodge, just means that I'm disturbing you now xDD
Hey, when I see you I could say you could've ranted a million words to me yet you keep those million words to yourself. I think you want to be noticed because you want people to ask you "What's wrong?" so that you can actually open up to them. Like the Lean On Me song says, "Please swallow your pride if I have things you need to borrow for no one can fill those of your needs that you don't let show" so if you actually need to tell me what's wrong, just say it (: I can't fill your needs when you don't show it xD
I think I myself lost my best friend. I don't even think she treats me like a best friend. I don't know anymore if I still like her. I'm just still with her because I've known her so long and we went through so much, but there are things about her that really pisses me off. For one thing, she takes advantage of me, always. When she wants something (she doesn't NEED it), she'll expect me to do it. I'll give it to her, yeah but once in a while. When she asked for too much, I was like thinking "You want this, why not you do it? I'm trying to help, yet I'm doing 110% of the work and you're shaking leg" when I refuse, she gets pissed off at me. When I ask her for help, she says she's lazy. It really gets on my nerve. She even told me she's taking advantage of me. For another thing, she cannot keep ANYTHING to herself. When I told her "you cannot tell this to anyone" there she goes telling other ppl. When I ask her why, she said it's not a big deal. When I told her I cut, she told her MOTHER. Her mother knows mine le. When I told her I'm magirox, she told the FAM ppl. Who wouldn't get fucking pissed?
I can hands down say I don't really have a best friend, and you're the first to actually know this. Coz I'm too ashamed to tell this to others. If you wana know, I care about you the most ok. Maybe it's because I think I know how you feel. Those feelings that get you to cut, after you cut and so on. I feel like you're going through the pain I'm feeling. When I started cutting, I never thought there was such thing! I thought I was the only person in the world that does this stupid thing, to half-suicide, coz I wanna kill myself yet I don't wanna die. After 2 years of cutting, then I realised ppl actually do tt xD haha. Then I started telling ppl abt it, since it's quite acceptable to mankind(LOL).
Junichi. Don't hide yourself. You don't need to poke ppl to get their attention, you've got people who care about you ok (: I don't know about your family, but Piggy and I do. Who cares if some people ignored you? We're here, always here. And that's what important. You're important. To me, to Piggy, and Animal Farm. Who started it huh? xD Don't feel you're unimportant, coz you're so definitely not.
