Thursday, July 31, 2008
8:10 PM
Maou 4 and Code Blue 4 is out yo! xD Was waiting like crazy la!!! haha... anw, today quite a big thing happened...
Ms Gwee asked for a discussion abt POA. Since we all SERIOUSLY SUCK AT IT, Ms Gwee asked what's the problem and we had to sort of answer. For me, I don't know. It might've been the subject, it might've been how we started off with our teachers. One thing's for sure, there's loads of people dropping POA. I am still in a dilemma whether or not to drop =/ It's quite a good thing if I drop POA, but I don't want to. Personally, I don't. I love the subject. I want to understand it, I just have trouble. Oh well, since there's a lot lesser people then maybe I can study better! Yeah xD
Oh yeah, now I'm scared that I'm gonna snap anytime! I have been thinking a LOT about stuff and it's been really stressful. A lot of people tell me their problems, I like it. I honestly liked being trusted and all, but I tend to think a lot for these people. It's like I was meant to help them. If I don't, I feel useless. I get really agitated lately and I'm really afraid I'll SNAP!
Btw, snap means I explode out my emotions in one go xD Example of snapping...
A: Eh eh eh it's you, right? Don't lie.
B: It's not me ok. Stop it. *agitated*
A: Don't need to lie. We're your buds.
B: *SNAPPED* When I say it's not me, it means that! Stop pushing me as if you've got all the sources telling you that it's me! You can just FUCK OFF AND SHUT UP COZ YOU'RE ANNOYING AND COMPLETE HUMAN TRASH!*trashes everything*
B: It's not me ok. Stop it. *agitated*
A: Don't need to lie. We're your buds.
B: *SNAPPED* When I say it's not me, it means that! Stop pushing me as if you've got all the sources telling you that it's me! You can just FUCK OFF AND SHUT UP COZ YOU'RE ANNOYING AND COMPLETE HUMAN TRASH!*trashes everything*
An easy example... They just blow off like an atomic bomb! It's scary, and when I snap I become Female HULK! haha xD But really, when I really snap I'll throw anything I can get my hands on and smack it all over the place. I'll blame everything on everybody and shout as if no one cares. I'll stare at everyone and make them shut up, then I run off and forget everything =D
今 問題 有る だから 何時も 考えてた。人生 は 重要 かな？人生 は 大切 の 物 かな？僕 は 何も 出来ない 分かってる。 僕 は 友達 守りたい、だけど 自分 で 守る できる かな？自分 で 生きてる 出来る? 出来ない かも 知れない。
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