Saturday, April 19, 2008
2:08 PM
ohayoooo~~~ woohooo yesterday, I went back from camp and did.... nothing xD I don't know why, but unlike others, I don't really know what I miss. I guess because I don't compare my house with the camp, I don't really miss much. xD lol. anw I'm getting pissed off for no reason coz everything's starting to feel they're so unimportant and so unneeded. Well, here it is.
Listen to me. You all, whoever you are as long as you are reading this, YOU are important to me. To me every single person is important. Heck even that annoying Diamond girl is important to me. You understand?! You all frigging don't understand that it hurts me when you think you're not important. You're fucking important to me, you hear me?! I need every single one of you. When I think of you all, every one I know, I smile. Coz it's ALL OF YOU that make me who I am now. Without all of you, I won't be this way. Hammy, Neko, Fuzzy, all of animal farm, my greenridgean friends, those girls that hate me in school, you all are the people who should be creditted for who I am today. I can't imagine living my life without any of you. YOU ALL ROCK MY LIFE!
SO STOP THINKING YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT! When you see me, be happy you've done something for me. BE HAPPY YOU HAVE SOMEONE THAT NEEDS YOU! BE HAPPY YOU HAVE SOMEONE THAT'LL LISTEN TO YOU WHEN YOU NEED TO TALK! BE HAPPY SOMEONE IS THERE TO CRY FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE HURTING! Ok, let's stop the caps xD
That's it. I am who I am because of every single person I've met in this 15 years of life. Without meeting Athirah and they all, I would still be the arrogant, sick girl I was. Without meeting Hammy and all of Animal Farm, I wouldn't know what's family and I wouldn't know how important every single person means to me. Without my greenridgean friends, I would never know how to survive after 1 week of not meeting my friends. Because of you all, I am this great optimistic person. I am aiming high because I know too many people have helped me and I can do it now. When I succeed, it's not just because of me. It's because of you too. You helped me in a way no other person can. YOU are the one I need to thank.
I don't know if this is true, but I think it's true. I think I have this "gift" that can listen to you and somehow understand you. Maybe not all of it, but partly. Usually, I'll try and say something nice to cheer you up. But if I can't, then I hope you've let go a bit of the pain after saying it out. But also, I've realised everyone affects me in a way. When Hammy felt she wasn't needed and she's just someone that can disappear just like that, I cry. When Piggy felt so useless watching everyone leave her, I empathise. Everyone has affected me in a way, good and bad. I guess it's just something I'm born with, but I'm glad (: Because, it makes me appreciate people.
When I feel like crying and giving up, it's still them that made me smile. Coz I know I'm not alone in this world. In this world, I am never alone. And in this world, you are never alone too. I may not answer your calls, or go online to talk to you on MSN, but now I tell you we don't need that to gain each other's encouragement. Just remember that when you fall, just step back up. You know if I was there, I'll smile at you. When I smile, I'm telling you it'll all be ok. And it WILL be ok. So just get back up and smile at me, and tell me the same thing back! (:
