Thursday, April 10, 2008

5:42 PM

I don't know why la, but ppl are so freaking emo now, like me xD But like, I don't really wanna tell anyone(except here) coz I can't really say it. Like... how am I suppose to say I'm emo? "Hey, I'm emo.." lol... xD

I don't understand why, but people can show that they're angry at me. Like, when they're angry they don't talk to me, raise their voice(even if just a bit), makes a face that obviously looks like they're pissed off. I fucking wanna know how. How the fuck am I suppose to show that I'm angry? I can only do it here, in this blog. But I can't really do it in school. It's super idiotic and I hate this, why can't I raise my voice at them and shove at them my point and stop giving way? Maybe it's just me that think that I'm giving way while they think they're giving way, not me. But WTF, I don't really wanna care what people think right now.

I'm fucking sick and annoyed. You all get angry,get pissed off at someone, blame someone for something. But I can't find one scenario where I screamed my lungs off and say what I feel like(aggresively when someone disagrees). I totally hate this, why the fuck are people blaming others when there's no need to? When you blame someone, what can they really do? I try to understand people so much, I start to believe everyone has their own reasons why, and these frigging adults have planted this phrase in my head that says, "in every problem, someone's at fault." and there was one split second I started to think it was my fault.

I want to have one scene in school where I can blow my trumpet off and not regret it. I fucking hate this. I FUCKING HATE THIS! Is this what life suppose to be? Then a life with nobody to care for sounds A LOT NICER. FUCK!!

I can't really trust someone who I believe can understand me. Then all I can do is try to put it in words here. UGGGHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I can't find any words in my vocabulary to express my anger, so FUCK THIS FUCKING LIFE WITH MY FUCKING PROBLEMS!

I'M FUCKING SICK OF LETTING PEOPLE BE ANGRY AT ME AND I DON'T THINK I HAVE EVER SCOLDED ANYONE. SHIT, THIS UNFAIR WORLD

*About Me

The name is Shafiqah.
I may not be liked, but am definitely loved.
I no longer give a damn to people of different views from me.
The people of the same views with me are loved.
I have big dreams and a big confidence to achieve it.

*My desires

~Watch Gokusen Movie and Coraline in the movies
~Get at least 1 Gothic Lolita suit
~Finish my list of "After O levels"
~Remove all my pimples
~Lose 10kg by January, 31st
~Get The BEST Of Aqua Timez Album
~Form a band

*My Music

Aqua Timez - Saigo Made

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

*My Friends

*Christin the Sotong
*Jue Ying the Mole
*DarkEmoPrincess1310 the MonkeH
*XiaoXing the Piggy
*Abel the BearBear
*CuteLove AKA Stephanie the Penguin
*Junichi The Hammy
*Caroline the Tiger Turtle
*Ye Jia the Froggie
*Dini the Cat

+2E2
+3 Emerald
+Esther
+Sherrie
+my previous blog
+Celeste
+Weilin
+Ruiyi
+Nur Shahiddah Ain
+Azmee
+Szemin
+Ira
+Genevieveee
+Chocolate Bunnies From Hell
+Sameen
+Dhania
+Joeyx3
+A I N kecygg
+Gerlyn
+WeiWei
+Gwendolyn
+Jessie
+Atique Vanilla

*My Story

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