Sunday, November 25, 2007
10:20 PM
zzz I feel lyk doing stuff I hate myself for doing again. Shyt, but I know I won't. becoz...dono XD Why do I always hurt the people I love? ): I really don't mean to hurt the people I love, but I did. Why do I always make them cry? Can't I be perfect for them? Why am I like this to them? Am I even worth it to be loved by them? Ok... I'm emo, no one can live a full anti-emo life,right? In any time, you'll just cry and hate and all that ^^
Sometimes, you just wana punch yourself inside out for what you've done. Why can't you just start being nice? Why can't you just be a good person? FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! That's what I am thinking now. I hate myself for letting other people shed their tears. I hate myself for doing all this. Does it change anything? No. It doesn't. I hate myself. Now, I officially do. Yeah, but it'll go away soon enough xDD I've been emo too many times to predict what happens next. If people hate me, I don't blame them. If they wanna kill me, I can understand why. If you hate me so much you ask yourself why you're reading my blog, I'm sorry you did.
If you hate yourself, it'll be better if you hate me. WHY AM I THINKING SO LOW-LY?! zzz i dono, i guess. I don't want my precious person I love ALOT to leave me. But if she hates me and leaves me, I'll respect it. Like my other friend. She's a really great person. I like her a lot. But she left me. Luckily, she left me with many good memories. I thank her for that (: Life isn't what you keep, it's about who and what you left and gained. Even if she left me, I gained more good friends. And they're just great. Love and hatred always come and go. It makes the world go round. If you hate me, I guess that's how it's gotta be. I don't hate anyone, I hope ><" Ok, maybe someone [my uncle] but I don't really hate him. It's just.... grudge. anw, cherish the people you love because you'll never know when they'll leave you and tell you gdbye.
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