Thursday, November 15, 2007
10:36 AM
It's getting to my nerves, sorry y'all but it really has. Teenage agony. I REALLY hate it. One thing I've had it before. Another thing, yeah I don't mind if y'all think it sucks and you wanna die. Everything's dead, you can't even feel yourself breathing. Yeah, I know all that crap. Even if no one reading this post believes me, I do know. If you don't believe me, then wadeva. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS TEENAGE AGONY,AIT?! But if there's people who believe me, then I'm seriously saying everyone feels the same amt and capacity of teenage anogy.Believe it or not, ok? Even if something seriously bad happens, something seriously gd will happen so it's fair. vice versa.
ok I'm coming clean. When I had this teenage agony, I thought no one felt it like I do. No one will understand what I'm fucking feeling. But it's not true. I'm so stupid to think like that. Everyone feels the same, but this IDIOT teenage agony always makes you think this feeling is the worst. No one ever felt this low as I am. Guess what? There are.
I don't wanna offend any of u so ok, maybe I don't know how you feel. But I've been told I'm unloved before [literally], I've been bitchy and such a asshole in my past, I agree, and I regret it SO much I used to cry every night thinking I could never get these people's forgiveness because I'm such a bitch. I've NEVER been told "I love you" by my parents, I've never been hugged by my parents since I was 8, I've never kissed my parents after my Dad told me "I'm TOO old" when I was 9. And wen I see my little siblings hugging and kissing my Dad every night when he got home [my oldest adek is 9 now], I just wana cry. That's why I don't wanna see it, or more so I don't wanna remember. I've made TOO many people who care so much about me cry. I made my Dad suffer so much. Believe it or not, I keep forcing my Dad to do stuff I want, not I need. I keep shouting at my Mom and saying all those shit to her I shouldn't have. I never listen to my Mom's advice and always regret it later. I always takes things for granted. My uncle hates me so much and he don't wanna be a part of the family because of me. OK? This is MY teenage agony. I know you have yours too. And I know it can be worse, but I doubt. Because I thought like tt too but now I've realised everybody feels the same pain.
I'm only saying this because I don't want others to think the same stupid thought I had. The one that says "No one understands." It might be better if I died. But so what? Screw them. XDD
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Labels: agony ain't right, criticising others is baaaad
