Sunday, October 28, 2007
6:10 PM
emo-ing again T_T
ok so I'm being emo, and felt like **ehem ehem** which has been A LONG TIME since I felt so. Not because of school or anything. Because, my step-uncle is... angry at me? Yeah... I just got news from my mom on friday he's mad like siao at me because I called him names. I was like.. seriously?? When?? My mom was like maybe I said it was a joke or something to my step-cuzzie, I said he had a big mouth. I don't know, maybe I did. Forgot about it lar. Then my mom said he's super angry at me and broke ties with me, my mom, my aunties, my uncles, my grandparents, etc etc... I was like... WHAT?! Then I just broke down and cried. 0.o I oso dono y I cried, but I did. And so heartily, that my breaths sounded screechy. Then I kept crying. Coz, I dono. I feel so... unwanted and unneeded. Some more a burden. I was crying. I remembered my past when I gave THE finger to my other uncle. He's SUPER SUPER SUPER nice and I couldn't forgive myself for that. Then I wanted to **ehem ehem** Then my mom unlocked the door and said I got a call. I said I didn't want to answer, it was Fuzzy asking why I haven't logged in Audition. My mom said I was sleeping, so wadeva la.
I mean, it's SO ridiculous. When you marry my auntie, you marry her family. You marry her mom, her dad, her sisters, her brothers, her nieces, her nephews, her whole family. Her family is yours. Then if I did say something like that, HELL ask me about it lar! Go and ask me why I said that. Make me cry, make me repent, make me apologise. THAT'S reasonable. You break ties with whoever that has ties with me?? Well guess what, she's MY auntie! Breaking ties with her?!
HE called me lazy bones and won't do anything also. DID I BREAK TIES WITH HIM? NO! I just was like, my eyes went watery then that's it. I didn't hold any grudges. PLEASE LA, even a 14-year-old can think better than that person that is hanging around with my auntie. Hari raya oso don't want come to my granny's house, come then leave. Never say anything. HAHA!! Making me laugh. Let me give a little education for you, "Uncle"! They are NOT me! You don't teach your nieces and nephews how to hold grudges who is still young and not of age! You don't teach someone that breaking ties with your enemy and people that are close to her will make it hell alot better! Because it's NOT DUH! That is... childish thinking??! It's the same as... You fren her, I don't fren you. You make me laugh!
You know what makes it more funny?! He still asks my mom to take care of his son. FUNNY RIGHT??! Angry with me, don't ask MY MOTHER to take care of YOUR SON la! If YOU'RE angry with what I said, YOU come to me. Face to face, ask me what the hell my problem is! Don't be a fking coward and go away from me. THAT'S COWARDICE, MISTER! Even those people that hate me at school have guts to shove me something at my tagboard. You don't wait until someone tells my mom and tell me. That's JUST UTTER PURE COWARDICE! Angry with me?! Hate me?! SCOLD ME! MAKE ME CRY! CALL ME NAMES! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, SLAP ME! KICK ME! FKING THROW YOUR TANTRUM AT ME!
GRRR!!! I'm so MAD!!! I just wanna say. If he's angry with me, I'm the one he should take a fight with. Not my family, they have NOTHING to do with this. I want him to finish me off, and forget this problem existed. I was angry at him, I didn't do all this breaking ties stupid thing. I just thought positively, "I'll win his older son in his O lvl results". I don't know why a 43 year old man with 2 sons thinks like this. I'm HALF MAD AND HALF SAD. Sad coz of my family, mad coz of his attitude and actions.
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