Tuesday, October 16, 2007
9:54 PM
Bad news tearing apart people's hearts
ok so good news spread fast and bad news spread faster so maybe all of you should know by now, that Fuzzy's bro recently passed away on 12 oct, the day before hari raya and also the day before her birthday. I didn't want to post about it but now, I think everyone knows and if I keep overlooking that topic, I might look like a moronic insensitive person who doesn't care about her bestie.
So here it goes, at about 6 something before breaking fast on Friday on the last day on ramadhan I had a call from her. She told me and cried. I, like Sameen, was stunned and didn't know what to do. All I could do was told her I was so sorry about the news and I was there if she needed comfort. So she hung up since she needed to break fast and called me soon after. I then told my mom, and we decided to go visit. They were reading some prayers for him and I couldn't gt it so I waited for the prayer to end. Then after, I came in and she hugged my mom first. Then she hugged me, I mean she cried and she was shivering. I just couldn't stand and I cried too, and I got to let go of her because if I kept hugging her, I would be crying so much and I would be like a goldfish like her too.
After that we went home since the silence to me was so hard to bear. We really didn't know what to say. My mom told me to tell some of her friends, to me it was best if she herself tell them but since my mom said so, I told Atiqah 2E1 and Wei Yi. They were both shocked and I wanted to know they wouldn't be so frightened and would take care of Fuzzy in case anything happens. The day after, she called me and wanted to see me again, but I can't since we had to go Hari Raya. I honestly was worried for her and wanted to be by her side and even if she needed to cry, I wanted to at least cry with her. But I can't, so I told her we could meet on Wednesday [tomorrow ^_^] where my mom approved of, so YEAH! haha I'm darned worried so seeing her would be a lot of relief for me.
I wanted to have a cake cutting for her with her friends now but lack of finances? haha if anybody really want to help, can sms me and we'll try and dig out as many "gold" we could xD On hari raya, I was too worried so I poured all my emotions into words, or more precisely a poem. I wrote it how I would feel if I was her, and hopefully I did well. I told her to read it when she's ready and she read it soon after, telling me she cried when reading it. Aw! Don't cry lar! T_T I just hope Fuzzy's ok from the shock. It was a huge shock and I really wanted to be there for her, but my parents kept wanting to go hari raya so I had no choice.
So now everyone knows. You might have read her story in the Berita Harian on 14th October 1st page or another english paper [forgot XD] on today i think dono which page. Please people, from here I realised why lives are so precious and fragile. I mean, last time I just wanted to die when something bad happens, but seeing Fuzzy and her family mourning for her brother made me open my eyes. Lives are not so precious if they weren't for your family and friends who would be SO HURT when you'll be gone, wishing you could still be there even if you aren't there anymore.
But now, what's done is done. We have our precious and fragile lives to take care of. We all know a death affects so many people and if you think death is just a problem-free contract then you all are mistaken. It's not so problem-free, maybe you will but what about the people who love you and your friends? You think nobody loves you? Well, then you're wrong. If you need someone to love you you could just meet someone in school, or even get to know me. I love each and every person I know[ ok this sounds sort of mushy] and I care for each and every one. Well, if I don't, then you're just some git XD For me, I would wanna live and tell my guy, "I'll love you and be beside you till death do us part". I would wanna know who would take me for who I am and couldn't be happier to spend the rest of his life with someone like me =)
