Monday, July 2, 2007
2:44 AM
T_T sobsobssobsobosbosbobsobsobs
Haixx, today was alright. Had MILK run, fun actually. While waiting for MILK run to start, after 2-3 mths of not smsing I decided to sms Kyo. Yea it was some shock lol anw I did. And he was cold-hearted at first. OK here's the short talk we had....
Me: Hello. Still remember me not?heehee
Kyo:Ya :-) Wad r u doing?
Me:Sitting beside a road. Nothing to do, haha. U?
Kyo:Hanging out. So many things to do. haha
Ok this part I was so pissed at him. I vented my anger for a while then continued smsing him.
Me:Oh. Pity you. I thought you're having holidays now?
Kyo:Yea. Next week then start.
Me: Oh. Waaa so gd, can relax.
Kyo:Yea, so good not getting allowance.
So cold. YOU got this icebox where you heart used to be~!!!
Me: Aw money only. Don't go out lar, lol no lar. Y not take a part time job?
Kyo:No one to take care of my Grandpa.
Me:Ic. Is he ok?
Kyo:Yea. He's alright, just have difficulties walking.
Me:Ic. At least have you to take care of him =) Hey why u nvr sms me for so long? You trying to avoid me eh?
Kyo: No lar! Say anyhow. Who say? I nvr msg you cuz I have no money to top up my phone.
Me: Oh. I tot u avioding me. you still hanging out?
Kyo:Yupz
End of it!I didn't wanna keep giving him qns for him to answer, so I didn't reply til now nth. zzz BOY YOU GOTTA ICEBOX WHERE YOUR HEART USED TO BE! haha then I told Fuzzy. And Fuzzy was like "=.= he's ill-treating you like what you did to him last time rmb?" That rlly knocked me out. Yea she was so right. I was so cold just like him. But why are we both so cold to each other? That got me thinking. I shouldn't think of him too much but still can't help thinking, why why why how how how how now what now what now what. Damn I told myself it was the end and no more yet I'm still thinking. Fuzzy wants us to patch up, but I don't know. I didn't wanna wait and all that for him cuz I wanna show that I can live without him. Fuzzy told me hes doing the exact same thing. I'M SO BLURR WHEN IT COMES TO KYO! And Fuzzy's the one who's figuring it all out eh? haha anws, still don't know. Still thinking. zzz In this blog, everything's personal so no secrets between me and my blog. Maybe I still like him, maybe I even still love him. But he left me, so I thought my love ain't doing anything. So I ignored it. Sux man, I'm hiding all my likeness and love and trying to 4get him. But he keeps getting stuck in my head. He was the first guy I rlly rlly like. Meaning I rlly thought he wasn't joking about this. Then he just left me with a msg. I knew tt msg doesn't sound like him. It doesn't, if it was it would sound different, I don't know I think he was forced to do it. But I can't help but cry over this. I might still love him, but I don't wanna patch up. Not just yet, or most probably never. Fuzzy asked me to wait, but I'm not the kind that wait. Y u wait for a guy? zzz =.= see no objective of it. So mean of me huh? LOL but I just see no reason to wait. I just let him go, and maybe that's the reason why I'm in such a great mood recently. But now, it's so crumbled up again. Now it's immediate mood swing. Like first minute I'm so happy and cheerful. Next minute crying and dono y. Siao lar, haixx why does Kyo have to do this to me? T_T Why do I have to do this to Kyo? =( when you're in love, things are so hard to come by.
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