Tuesday, July 31, 2007
7:56 PM
so many things today
There are so many things I wanna talk about today, but I waited til sunset coz I wana break fast first =D You all dono right?muhaha I fasted today, the second time. Coz last year I can't fast on certain days in Ramadhan because I had menses. So b4 the next Ramadhan starts, you have to pay back the ones you missed! I still have 5 more days to go... Oh well...
I had breakfast, which MUST be consumed b4 sunrise, then went to school quite early. Met Mad-jie and she started her story-telling, wasn't paying attention much but I act act I'm listening XD But I did listen when she said the store owner thought Mad-jie and Papa Gary(senior Gary from npcc) are bf-gf, LOL bt they are family lar. haha funny lor. Then all abt her guy and everything, forgot liao xD
Then school started. Got English. Quite nice to see Ms Goh again. But she was sick :( aw, then we had to do this survey. Alot of people sabo the school, including me. But truth is we're not really sabo-ing, we're telling the truth. Then they ask, do you respect your teachers. I disagree because I admit I don't respect SOME teachers and sabo myself oso XD Then science. PHEW Alvin Ng go bowling, don't need do tt mini-investigation coz really dono what to do lar. So blurr lor. Then recess WHEEE!! Siyi and Dini keep trying to tempt me with the chicken...
Dini : o0o0o0o Shafiqah chicken!!! (brings chicken closer to my eyes)
Me : =.=" yes yes.
Siyi : FOOD FOOD!! YUM YUM!!
Me: >_<" diao!! haha keep tempting me lar. but I'm NOT influenced!!! Ok,maybe a little xD so bad lor!! XD then had malay. Adiel and Muslim were....SLACKING!!! Not really showing it, but they were singing and saying crap. But they did lift the atmosphere up so it was pretty fun. haha had some good laugh there. Dini, Stephanie and I finished the compo. We had to do an emo compo. LOL my specialty ^_^ then I copied and give the paper to Dini. After that is History. GOT MY HISTORY MARKS. Guess how much? 4/24 MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Why I got such an AMAZING score:
-I'm not interested in History
-Didn't study much
-Wrote "crap"
-Everything "screwed"
-Never "put effort"
and bla bla yar yar... Well, had to admit what SHE said about 30-50% is true. But not all. She said I never put effort. errr... wrong? I put effort ok. But not in studying lar. XD in writing answers, I was like squeezing my brains out for brain juice to write a damn long thingy and she said it's what? CRAP!!! Total crapness!!!! Wahh my brain juice wasted liao~! She say "I know who put in effort" Ok maybe she was referring that to effort in studying, but I DID put effort in trying to write a fking damn long essay answer lor! If she said this is crap, dono what she say if I write a whole fullscap and fill it with as many CRAP I can fit inside. Just write CRAP CRAP until no more space. She say "I am VERY disappointed in you", "you should be having guilt inside you", "you CAN do so much better than this" and "have some faith in me!"
Er...You trying to put me in some depression or what? Trying to make me feel guilty. Guess what? I don't. Siyi v soft lar her heart, then I told her "my heart got this thick wall covering it. If I don't let you inside, no matter what you tell me, you're just hitting the wall. Not even TOUCHING my heart. But when I let you in, you just say one single horrible thing, my whole heart shatters" People think I'm quite COLD because whatever you say seems to have no effect on me, haha because of the wall lar. SHE say all that oso right, just keep hitting the wall not my heart. try poking my heart. No need, just touch and move it a bit, shatter liao! haha but I'm strong you know! Never tell people my shattered heart.LOL anw back to topic, she say I shoud be guilty and all that. I don't because my wall is blocking her words from my heart. If I just let her hit my heart, I can cry in class right there.XD good wall!! haha
Then she was like motivating. After contradicting(i dono wth tt means,forgot the meaning but Dini says that's best to suit her) she motivate. Say we can do it lar. yes yes... I don't believe you anymore lar. I mean, what is from History, of course I believe. But words from yourself, hard to believe. Ok I take back the don't believe anymore, but it's REALLY hard for me now to believe her. She lied to me. Ok my wall didn't work on that? haha nvm, she lied to me. That time she detain us say "I don't do this to other classes ok" That time, I saw 2E1 getting the same treatment she gave us. Anger flushed me, I trusted her. trustED! Now is very unstable. Like, should I believe or should I not believe. She could just be saying that and telling the same thing to other classes. It's easy to give trust for the first time, but after that someone broke it and wanted it back, it's hard to retrieve it.
Then she say " have faith in me" How to? Be truthful, don't go say SOME PEOPLE AR SOME PEOPLE like, instead of saying it straight, you go right left then tell but not fully. Ms Chia is good lar. She directly ask me why I never do my hw on time. I was honest. I told her, the truth and I wanted to change. I want to change because she believes in me and I can believe in myself. She has her bad points too sometimes, but I like her straightforwardness. And she nv ps me when she ask me why, hee hee.
What I think is relevant in HER words:
-never take work seriously
-Over-estimate one self
-Teachers are not 100% the reason why you fail, although they are some big impact
-and some other stuff lar.
Wah like, SHE keep targetting me lyddat. Stare at me, stare stare. Stere lar! My face so pretty? LOL jkjk, say think about it. Hm, wen I think about it, it makes me rlly confused. Like, i don't understand myself. Whatever lar! Wah so much to talk about JUST FOR A PERIOD! haha moving on, finally...
Home ec.We did pastry. Unfortunately, cannot eat. Then just now I ate, wah not bad. Dini and I were "fighting" wanting to roll the dough, then Mrs Luke cut it in half so we can both do it. HAHA good idea.LOL very fun. Shi Hui v pro. Her ones turned out so nicely. High marks confirm de!
Then go hall, get lecture from Mr Yap. Wasn't paying attention, not even looking at him. Never answer a single question, just stare at him, walk off and forget about it. Because that lecture doesn't affect me. Siyi alwaes ask me to sit in front, thanks to her I'm not included in his lecture whatever.
WAHH this post quite long eh. haha. Today Darryl play Truth or Dare so sian haf to say "You look pretty today" to me. XD LOL nice ar, ask him to tell me that. SO BAD!!! lol... ok lar, don't wana extend this post than it already is, and PS THIS POST IS OF NO OFFENCE TO NO ONE. WHO FEEL THEY KANA, IT'S NOT ON PURPOSE AND IT'S ONLY TO DE-STRESS MYSELF. JUST REACT AS IF YOU NEVER READ THIS POST XD bye~
