Tuesday, May 8, 2007

7:17 PM

I am so afraid

Ok so I'm CONFIRMING MY FAILURE OF HISTORY, coz all the questions I was so lazy and so hungry that day I just wrote 2 lines for each question. Say bye bye to my passing marks. haha Science was ok today coz there's a lot of digestion questions and I'm quite gd at them, but I suck at atoms and all that haha. tmr is geog, gotta study!
anw, I'm quite scared now coz a lot of ppl I know are starting to think of self-abusing because I told them I did. I can't believe this, I shouldn't have told them, but I did and I regret. A lot, haixx can't believe this. I hope they don't, if they do I'm going to turn my life hell. Wad I'm gonna do?I'm going to tell my mom, personally and directly. I'll go to counselling and turn my life disasterous. I'll make everything I wish wouldn't happen happen. I'm going to make this life of mine the worst I can do. I'm doing this for them, to see what would happen if they continue cutting when they start. I'm really scared, I don't want anyone to do this, nt even myself. But rather than anyone doing it, I'd rather do it. It hurts me to see them like this, why r u doing this to urself?dont dont dont. please, I'm seriously going to make my life hell if you do. Coz I'm the one responsible for this, I'll take responsibility for this. I don't want to turn myself in, so please don't. My parents might even send me there(u know,the siao hospital) coz they're like tt. so plz don't. When I'm alone I'll squat down cuff my hands around my ears and close my eyes tight, I don't want them, the people I care so much, do this coz it sucks. It honestly does....=(

Labels: I'm nowhere to be near sane

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