Monday, April 23, 2007

8:13 PM

suicide is no option for me...right?

Today just found out from my bestie tt I'm emo, which is... ok larr.Then I started thinking of suicide, cutting and all that. Argh, if you r in my msn. You'd know that "Suicide is da end, self-injury is da misery, happiness is da dream, loneliness is da usual" and I'm continuing. If you wanna end it all, just die. If you don't wanna end it all but feel misery, then abuse yourself. No matter what you do, you'll alwaes feel lonely so stop hiding that feeling. Happiness is something that can only be felt if you want to. So it's the dream larr. I don't know. If I cut myself, I'll feel good but everybody else won't. If I die, nah I don't want to die. I overcame cancer, so why just die? I just feel so guilty being alive, everybody's wishing me dead and I'm still living becoz I'm so selfish to think of only myself...=(haixx cut myself again?? c'mon gerl, u can control tis. damn larr... Don't think that I can still hold on, but I'm holding on. Anywaes, a lot of ppl haf been asking me to download this and that. So, I'm recommending these songs to u guys.Wanna download it? Right click and "save target as" or "save link as" n it's yours! hehes ... any song request, just email me or tag ok? I'll be glad to post it up =D

MCR - Famous Last Words
MCR - I Don't Love You
MCR - Welcome To The Black Parade
Dedy Dores and Mayan - Jangan Pisahkan
Akon - Don't Matter
Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend

I guess that's all for now larr. Courtesy of Multiply.com If you wish I was dead, you're not the only one yeas. I have made a lot of trouble to a lot of ppl, so it's not bad at all if you wished I was dead.

Labels: mcr avril akon dead suicide crazy stupid

*About Me

The name is Shafiqah.
I may not be liked, but am definitely loved.
I no longer give a damn to people of different views from me.
The people of the same views with me are loved.
I have big dreams and a big confidence to achieve it.

*My desires

~Watch Gokusen Movie and Coraline in the movies
~Get at least 1 Gothic Lolita suit
~Finish my list of "After O levels"
~Remove all my pimples
~Lose 10kg by January, 31st
~Get The BEST Of Aqua Timez Album
~Form a band

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Aqua Timez - Saigo Made

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